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Friday, 31 January 2014

Autobiography of Faqir


By His Holiness
Param Sant Param
Dayal Faqir Chand Ji Maharaj



MY LIFE
 
I was born on 18th November 1886 (a physical birth of course, otherwise I am eternal) at my native village Panjhal in a Brahmin family. This village was then in district Hoshiarpur of Punjab State. My father Lt. Pandit Mast Ram was a Constable in the Indian Railway Police. Father being the only earning member in the family with a small pay, financial poverty ruled our family. In addition to it, my father was very strict, perhaps due to the nature of his job or due to the financial worries at home.
Afflicted by the poverty at home and always feeling afraid of father’s strict nature, I (at the age of 7 years) sought relief in the worship of God, the creator of this world. Under the impact of Hindu Samskaras my thoughts and actions were all virtuous and in due course of time I studied the Ramayana, Mahabharta and other sacred scriptures of Hindu Dharm. As these scriptures at length deal with our lives and works of Lord Rama and Lord Krishna as incarnation of God in human form on this earth for the sake of their devotees, I developed a love for them and kept meditating upon their holy forms.
I studied up to middle standard at Pind Dadan Khan in District Jhelum, (now in Pakistan) where my father was posted. However, due to lack of resources my father could not give me higher education. Sometime in 1904, at the age of eighteen I got employment as a signaler, in construction line of the Indian Railways. During off duty hours I learnt telegraphy privately with the help of a signaler at the railway station. At this tender age I came into contact with the Platiers and contractors of the department. They were all non-vegetarians and their company had its impact upon me and I also turned a non-vegetarian. In the company of those inspectors and contractors I took to other wrong ways as well. I ate meat for six months, drank rum on three occasions, once gambled and lost one rupee and a quarter and also went to a prostitute.
It was an extremely cold morning of 1905 A.D. the previous night a terrible earthquake has shaken the whole of Kangra district causing a huge loss of life and property. My cousin, true to his daily routine, got up in the early hours, took his bath in the ice-cold water and said his prayers, he prepared the meals and we sat to eat it. At this time an employee of the railway station came in and placed a plate of meat before me. My cousin, who was a vegetarian, felt repelled by the foul smell of meat. He put both his hands on his mouth and nose, and out of hatred for the undesirable dish, he threw two chapattis in my plate from a distance. There were strange reactions on his face and I could not ignore the entire dramatic scene. Thereafter a mental conflict within me started. I started to question and counter question my inner-self. I thought he was my cousin. He religiously followed the dictates of Hinduism and was leading the life of a puritan, whereas my action and deeds were purely non-puritan. Why was it so? For half an hour this conflict continued in my mind and I couldn’t decide, whether I should eat that plate of meat or throw it away. Meat eating is a highly undesirable act for a Brahmin. Ultimately I decided not to eat meat and abstained from non-vegetarian foods for six months thereafter.
All these months, a sense of repentance over my actions governed me. However my visit to a prostitute made me realize my weakness for sex. At once I wrote to my father requesting him to send my mother and my wife (since I was married) to live with me.
One day I was going for a walk. On the way I happened to accompany a Jangli, a village head man. In course of our conversation we started to discuss the merits and demerits of meat eating. He put his arguments in favor of meat eating. He put his arguments in favor of meat-eating so logically that I forgot that meat eating was no sin. Before departing that gentle man handed over to me a chicken. I without bothering about my previous experience handed over that chicken to a class IV employee for necessary dressing. He beheaded that little creature and dressed it for cooking.
I brought it home and asked my wife to cook it. When my mother learnt about this act of mine, she went inside the kitchen, closed the door and bolted it from within. My wife knocked on the door of the kitchen, so that she might cook that meat. But my mother did not open the kitchen. My wife pleaded with my mother to open the door but there was no response. Then, myself, and my elder brother, both knocked at the door time and again, requesting mother to open the door. But she did not respond to our requests. Then frightened, (because smoke was coming out of the kitchen) I broke open the door with the help of an axe. She came out, suffocating with the smoke in the kitchen, angry and disappointment over my most undesirable act (regarding the chicken) writ large upon her face.
Overpowered by motherly affection, I embraced her and implored, “Mother, why did you not open the door? Where could I have found you dear mother had you been suffocated to death?” My mother, out of sheer anger pushed me away with a sudden jerk and I fell down on the ground. I rose up and under the prevailing spell of affection within my mind, again embraced my mother and asked her why she was so angry with me. Then she spoke thus, “you have killed the baby of a mother. The mother hen must be wailing over the loss of her dear child. You have committed a terrible sin.” At once, prompted by my conscience, I made a firm determination that in future, I would never commit such a sin. Since then (Now I am 94 years) I have never committed an act which could be called a “sin” as per principles of Hinduism, of-course, sex was a living passion with me and to gratify it, my wife was with me.
For earning pardon for the four sin referred to above, I prayed to God in the form of Rama and Krishna. I prayed and wept and prayed. I was helpless to do so. Because I wanted my mental slate to be clean and it was not possible till the four blots of my undesirable acts were struck there upon. Perhaps my tears shed so profusely, spoke of my conscientious urgency to wash off the dirt.
However, my regular prayers continued. But, my four sins continued to disturb me, and many a time I felt restless. It was the mid of a Moonlit night. I was praying to the Lord and weeping bitterly. There appeared before me an aged Sadhu with a long grey beard and a guitar (Tanbura) in his hand. Most lovingly he asked me “Dear child, what makes you weep?”. “I have committed four serious sins. I have known from the Hindu scriptures that God takes birth in human form in this world. I want to see Rama and get myself pardoned for my sins,” I said. This kind old Sadhu assured me thus “For you, your God in human form is already on this earth. You would come into his contact in this life-time of yours and be pardoned.” After saying these words the Sadhu disappeared. My impatience to see the Lord, face to face, increased after this incident.
In the meantime, I got a permanent job in the Indian Railways and was posted as Assistant Station Master at Baganwala Railway Station. But my craving to see the lord did not diminish; rather it reached its peak. Once, I wept for 24 hours continuously for the glimpse of my Lord. Doctors were called in and they administered medicine to me. At about 5 A.M. Maharishi Shiv Brat Lal Ji Maharaj appeared in my vision. He drew water from a near well and gave me a bath and then told me his address of Lahore. In this very vision my father also appeared and he made many complaints to Data Dayal Ji against me. In the meanwhile, a class IV employee woke me and this vision came to abrupt end.
This vision convinced me that the God had incarnated Himself in the form of Maharishi Shiv Brat Lal Ji. So, I started to write one letter every week and address it at the address, which Data Dayal Ji had told me in the vision. Inside the letter I always addressed Maharishi Ji as God. For ten months I regularly wrote to Data Dayal Ji. After full ten months, I received a letter from Data Dayal Ji Maharaj, wherein he wrote, “Faqir, your letters, I have been receiving regularly. I value your sentiments and your passions for Lord. I, myself have discovered, Reality, Truth and Peace at the feet of Rai Sahib Salig Ram Ji of Radhaswami-Matt. Provided you feel no reluctance in following this path, come and see me at Lahore”.
My cravings to see God in human form had reached its highest peak by now. At that, I was overjoyed, as I was sure to have the glimpse of the Lord in Human-Form. I had submitted an application for leave some time ago. As per His will, the same day a Station Master reached Baganwala with the news, that my leave was sanctioned and that he had come to relieve me. What a coincidence it was? I handed over to him and left for Lahore the same day.
I reached the ashram of Hazur Data Dayal Ji and prostrated my humble self at His Holy feet. He gave me an exceptionally affectionate welcome and initiated me into Radhaswami Matt. His Holiness gave me a book and asked me to go through that. It was “Sar-Bachan” written by Swami Ji Maharaj the profounder of the Radhaswami faith. I went through some of the pages of this book in the very presence of Hazur Data Dayal Ji Maharaj. But I could not read and digest it anymore, because Swami Ji Maharaj had most vehemently criticized almost all the religions including vendant, Sufism, Islam, Jainism and Buddhism. He declared them all in Kal and Maya. It was too much for me. I felt hurt and tears rolled down my eyes. His Holiness noticed-my-reactions’ to the writings of that Holy book and enquired the reason thereof. I broke out, “Your Holiness, God is one, I have failed to understand the justification in condemning all the religions as incomplete. This is a direct attack on the religion of my ancestors”. His Holiness very lovingly advised me, “keep aside this book and never read it until I ask you to read it”.
His Holiness gave me two other books, one on the life History of his Guru, Rai Sahib Salig Ram Ji Maharaj and the other was ‘KABIR SAKHI’ written by Kabir Sahib. He advised me to attend Sat Sangs of Radha Swami Matt wherever available.
In-ward practice as directed by His Holiness became part and parcel of my life. As I was not yet adept in the inward practice of ascending the higher stages of light and sound, I remained satisfied with my concentration on the Holy Form of His Holiness Hazur Data Dayal Ji Maharaj.
On my way back from Lahore, I used to stay at Malkwal Railway Station, because there, a bookstall agent used to give discourses on Radhaswami Matt, to the followers of Radhaswami faith. Once, the agent refused to share his “Huqa” (an Indian smoking pipe) with me. “We both are Brahmin by caste, why have you refused to share your “Huqa” with me,” I enquired. He retorted, “ Babu Kanta Parshad (alias Sarkar Sahib) is the only true incarnation of Radhaswami Dayal” (Babu Kanta Prashad at that time was in-charge of Radha swami Sat Sang at Ghazipur district of U.P.)
He meant there-by that a true Guru had not initiated me and thus I was not a true Satsangi. I politely said to him, “Dear brother, God is one. He belongs to all and all belong to Him. He may manifest to his devotees in different forms at different places and at different times. But if you do not agree with me, then let me write a letter. You mail this letter to your Guru. His reply in any form shall be accepted as final and I shall abide by it.” There and then I wrote a letter, shedding tears of love and devotion to the supreme- Lord and handed it over to the gentleman to post to his Guru. After 15 days, I was told that Babu Kanta Parsad had breathed his last and thus we should wait for the reply till his successor was chosen. From this incident I concluded that followers of Radha swami matt were not impartial and true seekers of the ultimate-reality. Their approach towards the all embracing –truth was narrow and very sectarian. Thus I gave up their company and avoided all blind followers thereafter. Even if anybody wished me with the word “Radha-Swami”, I responded with the word Ram-Ram.
In 1916 A.D. (during the 1st world war) I volunteered myself for war services and in the field, in order to earn more and repel the pressure of poverty upon our family. And before leaving for the place of my posting on the war front, I went to Hazur Data Dayal Ji Maharaj for His Blessings. He gave me the book “SAR-BACHAN (which he had given me on my first visit to Him) and advised, “study this book now and devote more and more time to Sumiran and Bahajan.” Thereafter, I left for Baghdad the place of my posting.
During my stay in Baghdad, I threw head, heart, and myself in Sadhana. I gave as much time as possible to inward-practice and shed a life of complete celibacy. These sincere efforts of mine with a craving to know the truth bore fruit and in course of time I ascended all the inner stages and I experienced the relative lights and sounds at each stage of the inward path. These inner fruits of my concentration (i.e. Light and Sound) filled me with joy and ecstasy. However, despite this achievement, I was not yet satisfied, because I wanted to realize the truth on the basis of which Swami Ji Maharaj had condemned all religions.
Towards the end of 1918, I was granted annual leave and came to India. I went to His Holiness at Lahore to spend my maximum time in His companionship. During my stay with His Holiness, I always troubled him with never-ending questions and queries. One day I placed before His Holiness the main agony of my heart in these words, “My God, I have traversed many in Light within and experienced sound in indescribable abundance. No doubt, these experiences have been a great source of Joy to me. But still I long to see myself and know the sublime goal of Radhaswami-Matt. How and why the goal of Radhaswami-Matt differs from that of other religions? I yearn to experience the declared supremacy of Radhaswami faith-myself.” His Holiness assured me that he would answer my questions the next day.
My anxiety increased and I very eagerly waited for the next day. It was December 25, 1918. Hazur Data Dayal Ji called me in his room. I was already waiting for the moment. I went inside. Lo; Hazur Data Dayal Ji with strange blend of affection and regard placed in my hands one coconut, 5 pieces, made a long frontal mark on my forehead and bowed himself to my feet saying. “Faqir, you are yourself the Supreme Master of your time. Start delivering spiritual discourses to the seekers and initiate them into path of Santmat. In due course, your own Satsangis will prove as your “True-Guru”. And it is through your experiences with them that the desired secret of Santmat would stand revealed to you”. Touched by these words, I experienced both joy and sorrow within me. His Holiness noted both these expressions on my face and asked for clarification of these expressions. I humbly said, “Your Holiness. I am myself ignorant of the Truth, how can I lead others on this Sublime path?” This is what has made me sad. And, when the thought, that I have become a degree holder and would deliver discourses and initiate people flashed my mind, I felt that I had become something and thus flash of Joy.” His Holiness then said “Faqir, you may be suffering from 99 shortcomings, but one sure virtue of Truth in you will surely lead you to your goal of life. You will not only redeem yourself, but would help many others to attain release.”
I spent my entire leave at the Holy Feet of Data Dayal Ji and then left for Baghdad to join my duty.
In Baghdad, I used to sing devotional songs. Every fiber (gross as well as subtle) of my being became saturated with a passionate longing for the Ultimate Truth. I always felt an overflowing Love for my Lord Hazur Data Dayal Ji, who for me was incarnation of Lord Ram. My devotion changed my personality and made me a CENTRE OF attraction for other spiritual seekers in Baghdad. I came to be regarded as “MAHATMA”, while some chose me to be their (spiritual) Master.
In 1919 A.D., I was posted to Iraq. The aboriginal inhabitants (known as Baddus) revolted, which led to a fierce battle. I was inspector in the department of Telegraphy of the railways with my Head Quarters at Divania. The rebels made a heavy attack on Hamidia Railway Station, killed the entire staff and set the building on fire. Military force from my Railway Station was rushed to Hamidia. I was also ordered to take the charge of Hamidia Railway Station as Station Master. Our soldiers (Indian army) laid down wires in the trenches and occupied their positions. Fierce fighting continued and there was a heavy loss of life on both sides. At Hamidia we were left with a corps of 35 soldiers and one Subedar Major. The rest of the army was sent to Divania to confront any attack there.
With the fall of the night, the rebels attacked us. Our soldiers though less in numbers fought back. One of our soldiers was wounded while casualties on the opposite side were very heavy, because they fought on offensive while we were in defensive positions. As the firing ceased for some time, Subedar-Major came to me and asked me to convey to our headquarters at Divania, that we were short of ammunition. And if we had to face another such attack, our ammunition would not last for more than an hour. If the ammunition supply failed to reach us before dawn, none of us would be alive. I wired the message to the headquarters accordingly. The situation was tense and everybody was feeling as if the end had come nearer. I too was shaken with the fear of death. In these very moments of fear, the Holy Form of Hazur Data Dayal Ji appeared before me (I was all awake) and said, “Faqir worry not, the enemy would come, not to attack, but to take away their dead. Let them carry away their dead soldiers. Do not waste your ammunition unless the enemy comes too near to your trenches.” I sent for the Subedar- Major and told him about the appearance of my Guru and his directions about the enemy. The Subedar-Major followed the directions of Hazur Data Dayal Ji. The enemy jawans came and carried away their dead without attacking our positions. By six o’clock, in the morning, our airplanes came and they air dropped the necessary supply of ammunition. Our fears vanished. We gained courage. We were all safe.
After about three months, the fighting came to an end and our jawans retired to their barracks. I returned to Baghdad. There were many Sat Sangis in Baghdad. When they learnt about my arrival, they all came together to me. They made me sit on a raised platform, offered flowers and worshiped me. It was all an unexpected and surprising scene for me. I asked them, “Our Guru Maharaj Hazur Data Dayal Ji is at Lahore. I am not your guru. Why do you worship me?” They replied in unison “on the battle field, we were in danger. Death lurked over our heads. You appeared before us in those moments of danger and gave us directions for safety. We followed your directions and thus we were saved.” I was wonder struck by this surprising explanation of theirs. I had no knowledge of their danger. I myself being in danger during those days of war even did not remember them. This incident obliged me to question within me. “Who appeared to them? Was he Faqir Chand?” It strengthened my faith and I concluded, “Whosoever remembers God in whatever form, in that very form He helps His devotee,” This gave a new turn to my conception of Spiritual Master. Henceforth I came to believe that the Master is no separate entity. He is the disciple’s own real self and lives within. Happy with this conclusion, I came to India on annual leave in 1921 A.D.
With all my love and devotion as usual I reached Radhaswami Dham in order to worship my spiritual guide in person. I humbly presented at his feet, one Singhasan (Throne to sit on), a set of brocaded clothes, a Huqa made of silver and silver utensils (all these costing thousands of rupees. I worshipped his Holiness in a mood of supreme gratitude and ecstasy. I stayed with His Holiness for about 45 days. All these days His Holiness wrote down for me many poems in order to dispel my ignorance. At that time, I did not understand them. But today I understand and realize how much ignorant I was. Hereunder I reproduce some of the writings of His Holiness for me as:
Thou be a Faqir, be a Faqir ;
Be Faqir my brother!
I may swim across with the feet;
O! Faqir Blissful!
I am not a devotee of Rama, Krishana;
Know not Brahm nor God!
I have the craze for Faqir’s name;
I accept it alone as Supreme!
His Holiness wrote this for me simply to lift me up from my passive thoughts, because I used to consider myself as the greatest sinner. In another poem he assigned me threefold duty as:
Thou hast come in human form;
Wearing the garb of a Faqir,
Take with the miserable men;
And lead them to the Guru’s Abode,
Man, weak, helpless and ignorant;
Is grieved by the treble-torture,
Thy duty is to be compassionate;
Impart people the True-Name,
O! Thou  generous one.
In a nutshell, His Holiness assigned me three duties for my follow up. And since then it has become the mission of my life. The duties as I understand them are as:
1. Your name is Faqir (Saint). Be true to your name. Do not look at the faults of others. Instead have pity upon the helpless, ignorant and the weak. With your love and affection help them out of this sphere of Kal and Maya, guiding them to their Real Homeward Journey.
2. You have come blessed with a form, which is really wonderful and unique. Your mission is “Welfare of the Humanity”. Remove the walls which divide the humanity and tell the entire mankind, how it can live a happy and peaceful life.
3. Liberate the deserving amongst them from the cycle of life and death. Be their guide and take them to the state of Nirvana.
In 1922 A.D., I went back to Baghdad. For about 17 years (1922-1939) I stayed away from delivering spiritual discourses. However, if any deserving individual approached me for guidance, I did not initiate him and told him to concentrate on the Holy Form of Hazur Data Dayal Ji Maharaj. I stopped giving Satsangs, Why? I thought that if I were to deliver spiritual discourses I must say the Truth (at least up to a point I had known it). If I were to remain true to my conscience and rise up to the expectation of Hazur Data Dayal Ji, I must reveal the secret about the manifestation of guru’s form to His devotees in moments of physical, mental and spiritual difficulties. And if I do that, the love, devotion and faith (blind faith) of people for His Holiness Hazur Data Dayal Ji Maharaj would stand reduced in all its dimensions. The offerings in Cash and Kind, free and voluntary service by the people at Data’s Asharam, may come down to a painful low stage. Thus I willfully waited for a right time to come, so that the Radhaswami Dham (spiritual centre of Data Dayal) may not suffer any loss to me.
I waited for the proper time to come. Ever since 1919 A.D., I had a very strong desire to disclose the secret and let the world know about all types of manifestations within and without.
In 1938 A.D. before, His Holiness Hazur Data Dayal Ji shed off his mortal frame, I sent him a telegram with the following resolution, “I solemnly promise that I shall spread the Truth to the world to the best of my ability and circumstances.”
Hazur Data Dayal Ji left for his Sublime Abode. I devoted all possible time to Sumiran, Dhyan and Bhajan (i.e. conscious repetition of Holy word, concentration on Guru’s Holy form, Light and Sound within).
Thereafter I wrote two books, both commentaries. The first was on Hidayat Nama with a chapter on “SAR-BACHAN” written by Swami Ji Maharaj and the second on “BARA-MASSA”. The former has recently been rendered into English under the title, ‘Yogic Philosophy of the Saints”. Soon after the publication of those books, I presented two copies of each to Hazur Baba Sawan Singh Ji Maharaj of Beas. Hazur Baba Ji wrote to me, “I have gone through the books. You are a true Faqir (Saint). You are doing highly desirable service to the Radhaswami-Matt, which I and other Gurus with our centers, have failed to render.”
But, still, I remained undecided about what I should do? Because I had a lurking fear in my mind that if I disclosed the Truth in plain words the narrow, minded, orthodox and illiterate amongst the Sat Sangis, would turn against me. Thus in 1942 A.D., I got leave and went straight to Hazur Baba Sawan Singh Ji at Beas to explain my fears and difficulties in person. I had great reverence for Hazur Baba Sawan Singh Ji and I indentified him with Hazur Data Dayal Ji Maharaj. With utmost reverence I submitted to Baba Ji, “Your Holiness, Kindly relieve me from the duty assigned to me by my Guru Maharaj Ji. Pray, take this burden off my conscience, so that I may get released from the sin of disobedience to my Guru.” Hazur Maharaj placed his loving hand on my back and said, “Faqir, I could not disclose the truth in its totality, because of two reasons (i) Satsangis in general do not deserve it, (ii) I am bound by the institutional exigencies.” He further said, “You do your assigned duty fearlessly. I shall be at your back under all circumstances.” Since then, I have been doing the work of Sat-Sang and writing of books on my personal experiences and observations.
By 1942 A.D., I had initiated about twenty two disciples to the path of Santmat. Thereafter, I have not initiated anyone on the traditional method of initiation. Why? A lady from Jabbal accompanied by her husband and three children came to see me at Ferozepur, where I had taken a service as U.D.C. in Indian Railways. She was a great devotee and her spiritual practice was on the second centre of meditation i.e. “TRIKUTI”, where she used to visualize my form in the red light. As a result of this, she used to remain in a state of ecstasy. She said to me, “I want to devote more and more time to Abhyaas (inward practice) but my children take most of my time and I feel disturbed”. I enquired of her, if she had any helper at her home. She replied in negative. Her husband was a telegraph inspector. He would leave home at 9am and return only at 8pm and thus it was very impossible for him to share her domestic responsibilities.
The will power of that lady had immensely increased due to her regular concentration at Trikuti. As such, her desire (to get more time for her spiritual practice) was to be fulfilled. This is the law of nature. So, there was no way out except the one, that she should be relieved of her children by nature. Before leaving she bowed to me and I said, “Your wish will be fulfilled”. When she left with her husband and children, I told my friend Pt. Wali Ram (who was sitting with me) that all the three children of this lady would die. My observations became true. Within a period of nine months all the three children died. I was shocked and thus I stopped to initiate except those who had a pure mind and a strong desire for self-purification. The practice followed by the present Gurus to impart name to every Tom, Dick and Harry without studying the propriety of the initiated is proving very harmful to the devotees.
Once, I happened to visit Agra and I got one book entitled “PREM-BANI” written by late Hazur Rai Sahib Salig Ram Ji Maharaj. In that book it is written. “Persons with hatred, prejudice and selfishness in their minds can earn nothing but more sufferings, for themselves as well as for others by doing inward practice. But, one, with shortcomings and faults, cherishes a strong desire to get rid of his shortcomings and faults also, would surely be benefited by Sumiran, Dhyan and Bhajan”. The reason is that by daily practice of Sumiran, the devotee becomes strong and he becomes capable of over-coming his shortcomings and faults. Therefore my advice to all those, seek entrance to the Santmat and want to transcend the inner stages of spirituality is,
“FIRST OF ALL MAKE SINCERE EFFORTS TO BECOME A MAN IN THE REAL SENSE OF THE WORD BECAUSE A PURE MIND IS THE PRE-REQUISTE FOR THE SPIRITUAL ADVANCEMENT. That is why I have named my centre (Ashram) as “MANAVTA-MANDIR” at Hoshiarpur. We can be spiritual only if we are true human beings first.
Let me recount some of the important incidents of my life, which may be of some benefit to you.
1. After my 12 year stay in Baghdad I returned to India and went directly to His Holiness Hazur Data Dayal Ji for his darshan. During my stay in Baghdad I had traversed many stages of Santmat within and thus I was all happy and gay enjoying peace within and without. When I appeared before His Holiness, he ordered me thus, “Faqir, since you have no mail child, go home and beget one”. I obeyed and reached my family. During my stay at home, I continued to Abhyaas and also enjoyed marital relations with my wife. I forgot the spirit of the advice of His Holiness and instead of going to my wife with the sole purpose of begetting a child I started to enjoy sex for the sake of enjoyment. This excess of indulgence in sex shattered my long earned joy and peace of mind. My digestion was upset and I suffered heavily both physically and mentally. As a result I gave up taking of grain, pulses, potatoes and rice for a long span of 35 years of my life to regain my strength.
2. Once, Hazur Data Dayal Ji sent two gentlemen to me. They wanted to understand spirituality. What is spirituality if not a happy life and peaceful mind? At that time, I myself being bereft of that wealth, expressed my helplessness to them and asked them to go away. They wrote to Hazur Data Dayal Ji about their visit to me and also about my reply to them. His holiness wrote them back, “He who draws a blank from Faqir, can hope for nothing from me.
After receiving this letter from Hazur Data Dayal Ji, they again came to me and handed over that letter to me. I read the letter and mind revolted against Guruism. But there was no way out. Tears rolled down my eyes and I lost myself in prayers. In moments I lost consciousness of all around. During these moments of my prayer, I heard a voice from within “LUST AND PEACE NEVER STAY TOGETHER”. I got the answer to my problem as well as their problem. Thereafter I controlled myself, for the next 28 years, I remained in the company of my wife, but sex had no place in our relations to each other. And in course of time I regained my lost joy and peace. Now at this age of 94 years old, I am better than many who are younger to me.
Semen in man is a God in gross and visible form. Mind is God in man in subtle form and Surat is God in human body in casual form. Those who do not know the art of moderate and controlled living in all these stages, they can never attain peace. The seekers of spirituality must control their passion and protect their semen. Many young men and women come to me for blessings. Why? They have not known the importance of celibacy. They waste their vital energy before attaining the age of maturity and thus they suffer from mental and physical ailments. Then Mahatamas, no Guru and not even the God can grant peace of mind to an individual who has not learnt to master the instinct of sex. One should use his semen only for begetting children and for the continuity of human race and not for sexual pleasures. Women are companion of men, but are being considered as the mere tools of sensual pleasures. To all young men and women, my advice is that they should lead their lives in celibacy. This is the lesson that I have derived from my life long experience and it has become the corner stone of my life.
3. I have lived a very hard and honest life. My pay used to be very meager in those days and it was great difficulty that I used to meet out my family requirements. However, I did not adopt any unfair means to supplement my income. During off duty hours I used to work in a brick-kiln near Miani Railway Station. Shri Ram Ji Mal was the owner of that brick-kiln. He used to pay four annas (a denomination of currency) only for bringing out the bricks from the kiln. Then at railway station, during off duty hours I used to work as coolie. For carrying one item from outside the platform to the railway compartment and from the railway compartment to the outer gate of the platform I used to charge one anna. I never had the feeling to inferiority in doing those odd jobs rather my hard and honest earnings always gave me inner strength and moral courage.
4. Throughout my life, I have never used any undesirable method to supplement my income. Not to talk of accepting bribe (*while there were many chances) in any form I never used the official stationery for my private use. My father was a constable in the Indian Railway and ever since I came of age I stopped to take food at his place. Once, when my father was posted at Pind Dadan Khan railway station, he fell ill. I went to see him after crossing the river Jhelum. My father asked me to have my meals with him. I made an excuse and said that I do not have any appetite. After spending some time with my father I left and reached bazaar. There I had my meals at a hotel. In the meantime an old class-fellow of mine came into the hotel and he saw me eating there. He went to my father and casually told him that he saw me taking my meals in the hotel. Father felt very much annoyed and he came to me the next morning to know the reason of eating at hotel and not with him. I told my father “father, you are in the department of police and you accept bribe, therefore I did not take food with you”. From wordily point of view this act of mine was not good. Perhaps I should not have done like this. It was nothing but my ego. But my father never accepted any bribe in his life.
5. I was married at the age of 13 years. In hills, the bridegroom is carried in a decorated palanquin. At the time of my marriage, I too was being carried, I felt great pleasure and prayed to God, “May I be married again, so that I may enjoy this pleasure of palanquin again”. The result of my prayer was that my wife died after sometime. My second marriage was arranged. I was again made to sit in the palanquin. Then the old scene of my first marriage flashed to my mind. I repented and instead of enjoying the palanquin, I felt unhappy and sad. As you think, so you become. Your earnest desire is sure to be fulfilled; it may be good or bad.
6. I often ask parents, that they should not beat their children because I know the result of beating the innocent ones. I was studying in the 5th class. I had my younger brother named Wazir Chand. He was very small and I had to carry him when my mother was to cook or do some household works. Many a time I was beaten for him. Once I was carrying him and playing with him. Suddenly, my foot hit something and I fell along with my brother. Wazir Chand started weeping. Mother heard him and came running. She gave me five severe blows, as if it was my fault. She again gave Wazir Chand in my hands and directed me to keep him in playful mood. I came out, with my brother in my arms. I still remember that place, where I stood and prayed to God in these words, “O! God, I am beaten for this child, either kill me or take him away”. Within three months my brother died. My teachings are based upon my practical life. I do not say anything, which I have not experienced or realized myself.
7. In good old days, boys and girls had no knowledge of each other before their marriage. At the time of marriage, there used to be one ceremony, according to which bride and bridegroom were made to see each other from behind a curtain and they were asked to pronounce the name of each other at once. Thereafter, in the capacity of husband and wife they were not supposed to name each other, I too was made to go through this traditional ceremony. After the face seeing ceremony, I was told to pronounce the name of my wife as Karodhu (Short-tempered). As I learnt her name, it struck to my mind that, I shall not be able to pull well with her. Because, according to the teaching of Hazur Data Dayal Ji, name has its impact upon the individual and I thought that she must be very short tempered and quarrelsome in her nature. But there was nothing like that. However, her every act though good and satisfactory never pleased me. She never annoyed me. She attended all the household work nicely. But to me she always appeared as if on quarrelsome mood because I used to remain pre-occupied with this thought, ever since my marriage and the name pronouncing ceremony. Ultimately, I wrote to His Holiness about the state of my mind. His Holiness Hazur Data Dayal Ji replied in two lines as:
“Now that Bhagwati (One who is fortunate)
Has become your lot in life,
What good now, in running away from her,
Perform your duty well as a valiant,
His well shall take care of thee”.
These lines of His Holiness changed my entire thinking about my wife. All negative thinking vanished and I lived a very happy and content life with my wife.
8. I was posted at Sunam Railway Station as Station Master. One day, while sitting on a chair I went into a deep trance. After sometime, when I came down to my physical consciousness and opened my eyes, I found one handcuffed, dacoit accompanied by a policeman sitting by my side. He was fanning me. I asked him, “Who are you?” He replied, “Maharaj, I am a dacoit”. I said to him, “you are not a dacoit, you are a devotee”. In a state of ecstasy I told the policeman, “He is not a dacoit, you please set him free”. It was a very hot day of the summer. Bare footed and bare head I left for S.P’s office, which was situated in the Market. Shri Bhagwan Singh was Superintendent of Police. When he saw me in such a state, he came out of his office and enquired as to why I had come to his office in such a hot day and that too barefoot and bare head. I told him about that man and stressed that he is not a dacoit and so I want that he should be set free. He advised that this gentleman should become an approver and should tell everything, we shall set him free. The advice of the S.P was accepted. The gentleman was set free. He promised me to live a noble and honest life. I invited him to my home, served him food. He did live a changed and happy life.
9.In her old age, my wife had developed heart trouble and some trouble in her teeth. Sometime, blood used to come out of her teeth. So during moments of trouble, sometimes she used to say very harsh words to me. But I never felt her words because Maharishi Ji’s Samskaras had great impact upon my mind. Due to my spiritual bent of mind, for a long time I had been indifferent towards my wife. Once, I came on annual leave and went to His Holiness for His Darshan. He directed, “Bring your wife along with you, otherwise I shall not meet you”. Obedience to Data has been my religion. I went home and returned along with my wife to His Holiness. Pointing to my wife, Data Dayal Ji asked me, “Who is she?” I replied, Hazur, she is my wife. His Holiness again said, “I ask who she is?” I replied, “Hazur, She is daughter-in-law of Pt. Mast Ram Ji”. His Holiness asked for the third time. Then I said, “Hazur she is the daughter of Shri Surjan Ram Ji”. Hazur Data Dayal Ji asked me for the fourth time. I said, “Hazur, I have not been able to understand”. Then His Holiness in most compassionate mood said to me, “She is my daughter, if you hurt her, you will hurt me”. This Samskar of Hazur Data Dayal Ji guided me in my family life and I lived very respectfully and peacefully with my wife.
10. Always be vigilant about mind. Physically, I have not committed any sin except the four, which I have already mentioned in the pages of this book. But at my mental lever, I have had many falls in my life. Even at this advance age of my life, sometime, such a thought comes which I never wish to entertain. However, I remain vigilant at all levels of my existence i.e. physical and spiritual. I narrate here under some incidents of my early age.
Once, I was coming to India from Baghdad on my annual leave. At Makina Camp, I was waiting for the ship for my homeward journey. As there was yet some time, for the arrival of the ship, I thought to have some puffs of “Huqa”. So I went to the kitchen of some laborers to collect fire from their earnings after finishing their meals. A four anna coin was lying near the fireplace. I saw all around (to confirm that nobody was seeing me) and picked up that four anna coin, collected the necessary fire for my Huqa and returned to my bed. When I reached my bed, I thought, “You receive Rs. 500/-per month. What for you picked up this coin so stealthy?” I repented upon this foolish act and gave that coin to someone. It is very easy to preach and sermonize others, but most difficult to be practical in one’s life.
11. I was in prime of my youth when I went to Baghdad. I stayed in Basra-Baghdad for 12 years. But I never went out to see the cities of Basra and Baghdad. Because the ladies of those towns had great beauty, thus I avoided visiting the cities so that my mind may not drag me down. One day, I was sitting all alone in my quarter Number H.P – III. The door of my room had a bamboo grill. From within my room, I saw that two beautiful women were heading towards my quarter. Those women generally used to visit our camp for meeting their friends and to enjoy with them. On seeing them at a distance I shut my door and sat inside silently. But after a few moments I got up and peeped through the door to see those women. What a pity? Who can believe the working of mind and who can dare to live free from it? This mind is not to be believed. It can bring you down to the lowest ebb in moments after taking you to the highest glory.
12. Once I was posted at Miani Railway Station as Station Master. A train from Bhera arrived in. A young, beautiful and well-dressed girl also got down from this train. As I was on the gate, she handed over to me her ticket. But as I saw her, my mind went its way. In order to control my mind, I slapped my face in the very presence of that girl. However, that girl went away. I did not know who that girl was. But the girl knew my mother. She directly went to my mother and told about this incident. When I came home, my mother enquired as to why I slapped my face when that girl handed over to me her ticket. I said to my mother, “Mother, now I am of age, please do not ask me such question”. Saint Kabir has written:
“I presumed, mind as dead,
it became ghost, after death,
Becoming ghost, it follows me,
It is such an undutiful son.”
13. When I married, I had a desire that my children should not have lust, anger, greed, attachment and ego (because these five are considered as the enemy of the individual). I wrote to Hazur Data Dayal Ji Maharaj about my desire and prayed for his blessings. His Holiness replied, “Whatever you wish shall happen.” I was blessed with a daughter. At the time Hazur Data Dayal Ji was away to America. I visited his hut at Lahore and bought home all his worn out clothes, because I was very much emotionally attached to Hazur Data Dayal Ji Maharaj and His belongings. I handed over those clothes to my wife and asked her to wrap the newborn child in them. The same was done. The result is that my daughter is as I wished her. She remains happy in the worn out clothes, where as there is no dearth of new clothes for her. She would stitch the old ones and continue to wear them. Her mother died, but she expressed no attachment with her. This is the result of my own Sanskaras and desires for my child. Your thoughts and Sanskaras are carried to the womb of your wife along with your semen. You are responsible for procreating obedient, noble, loyal, wise and healthy children as well as disobedient and irresponsible. That is why I always stress upon that “PROCREATE IF YOU MUST, PROCREATE WITH THE INTENSE NECESSITY OF PROCREATION.”
I tell you another instance of my life regarding procreation of better children. I had no male child. I cherished a thought to procreate an honest, obedient, intelligent and noble son. I did get a son with virtuous and noble thoughts I aspired for him. He has never given a chance to complain till this day. He is most sincere, obedient and intelligent. He holds one of the top posts in the big Govt. concern and draws about Rs. 3000/- as monthly pay. He has so much regards for me that he does not sit in my rikshaw. He does not allow my servant to work for him. These instances of my life are being written for you so that you may learn some lesson of living a good and happy life.
During my visit to Hazur Data Dayal Ji Maharaj, I used to trouble him too much because I used to consider myself as the greatest sinner. But His Holiness always tried to lift me up from my negative and weak thinking. He used to say, “Faqir, you shall be the greatest among Faqirs”. He always encouraged me and the result is my present position. He wrote a lot for me, but here under I reproduce His last writing to me:
Who is happy in this world?
Happy is only one, Faqir,
Happy are not the richest,
Men of heavy stocks, wealth,
Renounced world, renounced that state,
Renounced the Lord, too as well,
Renounced the renunciation too,
Heart satiated with renunciation,
Blessed, with sight of oneness,
Seeing spectacle of oneness,
Advances forward day and night,
To complete the journey of this world,
What this world? It is a dream,
And dream too, for a Faqir,
Wealth, pelf and in riches,
He is not all involved.
Mingled in dust entire this world,
And dust remains, here forever,
He dwells in ecstasy,
Every time, morn and eve,
Faqir neither worships nor is worshipped
His is free from this show,
Happy appearance, joyful heart,
Ever pure in his soul,
Whom you see, in state,
Accept him, as true Faqir,
He is sage of both worlds,
And a sear of two worlds,
Whatever, I did realize,
I lay down here for you,
Thou had spread thy cloth.
That is being filled today,
Merged am I in myself,
Yee too, should merge one day,
Ye shall attain thy destination,
It is disclosed just today,
That is why, above all other,
I am, proud of thee,
Yee will illuminate the Nama,
It is the voice of my heart.”
In 1933 A.D., I was posted at Sunam Railway Station as Station Master. His Holiness Hazur Data Dayal Ji visited my place. On request of a large number of people, Satsang was arranged. In that general sat sang Data Dayal Ji said to me, “FAQIR, THE TIME SHALL CHANGE. THE TRADITIONAL WAY OF PREACHING SHALL NOT BE ACCEPTABLE TO THE PUBLIC. THEREFORE YOU MUST CHANGE THE MODE OF PREACHING BEFORE LEAVING YOUR PHYSICAL BODY”. In obedience to the command of my Sat-Guru I am obliged to speak out my experience and my research to the world.
MY SEARCH
Thousands of instances have been brought to my notice in writing and verbally, where in, my form has appeared to different people at different places and at different times. Some saw me in their wakefulness and while others have seen me either in their dream or in their Abhyas. My manifested form guided them in their physical and mental troubles. But I never knew about these instances, until I was told or written to. What is the secret of these manifestations?
These manifestations are not a Reality. Whosoever has his faith in any guru, god, goddess or any ideal, the form of his or her ideal manifests to him or her. It is the result of impressions and suggestions that our mind has accepted. And nothing from without comes to manifest. It is the miracle of your own concentrated mind.
Different devotees of different gods and goddesses see the manifestations of their own ideals. Some see Vishnu, others see Lord Rama and still others see the form of their own guru. Ask any Christian or a Muslim, if they ever see Lord Rama in their meditation, wakefulness or in dream. If Lord Rama is really all pervading then his image or Holy form must also manifest invariably to Muslims and Christians as well. But his form appears to the Hindus alone. Why is it so? Since Muslims and Christians do not have any Sanskar of Hindu Gods. Similarly, the form of Jesus Christ and Mohammed do not manifest to any Hindu, because Hindus do not have any Sanskar of Jesus Christ or Mohammed. Manifestations that appear to you are the magnified forms of your own Sankaras. Nothing from without comes to manifest. It is the result of faith and belief of the individual.
I daily receive a heavy mail regarding such instances. In one instance, a student while sitting in the Examination Hall remembered me because he was unable to answer the questions, as they were difficult. He prayed for help. My form appeared and sat under his desk and dictated him all the answers. He secured very good marks. But I say it upon my honor that I never knew about that boy. Not to speak of him, I even do not know the subject in which I dictated my answers (I am myself only a middle pass). Those who have faith in my word and those who think that I am a great saint, their faith do miracles to them, not me. I remain unaware about all such instances that are attributed to me.
Once a Satsangi came to me and told, “If anybody falls ill in our family, I do not go to any doctor, instead I pray to your Holiness. You appear and direct us to take a particular medicine from the bazaar, take it and get cured.” Whereas when I am ill, I consult my doctor for the treatment. What is this? It is the work of faith and faith alone. This is my research.
Scientific research has proved that even the movement of our little finger can produce vibrations in the space, which rise up to the stars and return to the place of their origin. The vibrations caused by the movement of our finger are woven out of subtle matter, travel to the highest point in this cosmos and then return to the place of their origin. I have known the power of thought and I believe in the philosophy of thought. To be clear and precise I give you certain examples.
You sleep and enter the state of dreams, you become furious in your dream and you beat somebody. In such a state, your body and hands move as if you are actually beating somebody. If you experience a frightful dream, your tongue is moved and you cry. You enjoy sex with a lady in your dream and your semen gets discharged. Now you think over this enigma. Actually, there was no-one whom you were beating in your dream and nor was there any lady, but simply your involuntary thoughts and Sanskars moved your hand and also led to the discharge of your semen. Now, you can well imagine, that if your unknown Sanskaras and involuntary thoughts can have this effect upon your body during the state of your dreaming, how much disastrous would be the effects of our voluntary, determined and willed thoughts charged with jealousy, greed and selfishness. At present, we are passing through very critical times. Opposite ranks in all the walks of life i.e. social, political and religious have led us far away from the goal of peace and harmony. I have been doing my best for the last 30 years in awakening the political leaders, religious preachers and social performers through stage and writings. Even today, I give a clarion call that our present system of election is a sweet poison for the nation. It sows the seed of hatred, enmity and jealousy. It is leading to the disintegration of the nature rather than to integration. The present set up of our democracy must change to “auto democracy”. Hence my teachings to each and all are, “Be pure in thought, word and action, hate no-one but love all. As we sow, so we shall reap. Sow love and justice, reap the same and live a happy and peaceful life.
As regards “NIRVAN” (i.e. Release from the cycle of birth and death), I have to say that it does exist. You must have seen some children are born as blind; some others lose their eyesight or suffer attacks of disease and get crippled in early days of childhood. What a sin such children could have committed while in womb or in early days of their childhood? It proves that they have suffered in this life for their past sins and deeds. Those who do not believe in the philosophy of re-birth and the philosophy of deed must conclude that the creator of this world is very cruel and he is indifferent to the human sufferings. He creates the creatures including mankind according to his will and whim and awards punishments and rewards as per His will without caring for our good and bad actions.
It is said, that God created man in His own image. Correct. However, what about a man? He too creates his progenies in his own image. We indulge in sex, not for begetting children, but for enjoyment. Children are born simply as by-product of our sexual enjoyment. Do we know what fate they will meet in their lives? Moreover, we expect that they (offshoots of our uncontrolled passions) should remain obedient to us, keep them in discipline and trend the path of virtue. This can never, never happen. Let any leader, Guru and social reformer do his utmost to reform such a generation. Fault is not with the generation, but with the generators. The youth all over the world is undisciplined, disobedient and un-controlled. Winds of un-rest blow all over the country, nay: all over the world. Who is to be blamed? Not the youth but those whom they are born to and those who educate and control them. I, in my own way, do my best to show the right path to those who come to me. To married couples I always advise, “PROCREATE FOR THE SAKE OF PROCREATION. DO NOT PRODUCE UN-CALLED FOR CHILDREN. WOMEN ARE NOT A TOOL FOR SEXUAL ENJOYMENT, BUT THEY ARE LIFE PARTNERS.”
HOW TO ACHIEVE THE FINAL RELEASE
In the west, scientists have made experiments on dying men. They placed dying the dying men on very sensitive scales and applied a special paint on the screen fixed on the opposite side of the scales. It was observed that while a man was breathing his last, the screen showed signs of something very subtle leaving the body of the dying man. They even noticed the color of that subtle element. Simultaneously, it was noticed that the weight of the body had decreased and the decrease of weight ranged between 5 to 15 grams in different such cases. This decrease of weight in body proves that the subtle element (call it “self” or soul of man), which left the body, had weight. Now, a thing, having weight cannot go beyond the gravitational sphere of earth. Under the gravitational force it is bound to be attracted by and remain within the magnetic field of this earth. Why the soul or self has weight? It is because the dying man had attachment with the gross matter in one form or another. So I say that you may do inward-practice (Abhyas) all your lifetime, give alms, help others and do noble deeds, but if at the time of death, you “self” while leaving the body does not achieve the state of weightlessness by giving up attachment for gross matter in any form, let it be known for certain that you would not stand released from the cycle of transmigration. You may have been a great devotee. You may have been listening to the unbreakable sound (Shabada) and dwelling in the stage of light within. They will all stand no guarantee for your release from the bond of birth and death.
Now, let me define the attachment for gross-matter. It covers your attachment with your property, father, mother, wife, children, Rama who was born in Ayodhya, Krishna who was born at Mathura and your Guru whom you believe to be a human being. If a form of any of these appears or manifests to a dying man, then think not that the dying man has crossed the sphere of gravitational pull of earth or attained release from “KAL” and “MAYA”. The entire Hindu Philosophy is based upon this principle of attachment. A follower of Sanatan Dharma is advised to renounce the world and become a Sanyasi in the last phase of his life. The sure, unmistakable and scientific was to attain “MOKSHA” is that a seeker must attain perfect detachment from the body, mind and soul. A bird spans wings to have flight in the sky. The soul must shed away its attachment for everything on this earth to reach its sublime-abode. This is the core of Sant-Matt, Radhaswami Matt and Sanatan-Dharma and this teaching I impart to those who come to me for this purpose otherwise I tell the art of happy living in this world.
THE LAST WORD ON THE SUBJECT
Now, at this age of 94 years, I live a life of peace and happiness. While knowing I lead my life as if I know not. The entire creation is a game of on Supreme Power. Whatever we see, feel or know is a mere play of that Supreme-Power. Whatever happens good or bad or beyond these both, is within His Order (law). By His will, man can achieve the state of NIRVAN and under His will man must continue to remain in the cycle of transmigration. To His Will I bow, To Him and to Him alone I surrender. This is the last stage of my life long research. His will is supreme. Whatever happens is for the good. This belief gives me peace. By virtue of the knowledge (gained through my lifelong research), I remain detached and do not identify myself with the trinity i.e.; body, mind and soul. I always keep myself busy (work is must in life) with selfless service to mankind in various ways. Inwardly, I remain conscious of my “SELF” and resigned (SHARNAGTAM) to the Supreme-Lord, beyond the regions of the gross, subtle and casual.
People all over the world pray to God and worship Him in different ways. But my research proves that people in general worship their own minds, i.e. God of their own mental conception and not the Primal-Lord the “MAINSTAY”. Anyone willing to worship the “PRIMAL LORD” must as a pre-requisite live in the company of a “RELEASED GURU”, to gain perfect understanding for, the worship of the Supreme-Lord. What prayers can be offered to Him, who is beyond the conception of mind? However, he I present in every being in the form of “SURAT”. So if you wish to worship Him, then the best worship of Him would be the service to humanity. However, you cannot do service to each and everyone on this earth. The best and easy method to worship the lord is to serve those, who are attached to you by nature. You should serve without any attachment and selfishness, your parents, wife, children, brothers, sisters, friends, relatives and neighbors. If you can offer prayers and worship God evening and morning, but cherish jealousy, prejudice and enmity against your family members and relatives, you are not a true devotee of God, but a great hypocrite. You do not worship God, but your own little ego. Such worship would lead you nowhere.
Nature values the thought and desire of each one of us according to the intensity of our desire and thought. According to my desire of spreading “The Truth throughout the universe to the best of my ability and circumstances”, nature has helped me. Dr.I.C.Sharma, a professor of Philosophy in America (at present) had a vision in 1959 in which he saw a man, who told him that he would attain release in this very birth. In 1965 when I was giving a general Satsang at Birla-Mandir Delhi, Dr.I.C.Sharma came to me and told that it was “I” who appeared to him in his blessing he was going to America on a teaching assignment. I gave him one rupee note with the writings “Luck to I.C.Sharma”. And I gave him one monthly magazine “BE MAN” with the suggestion that he should speak to Americans on my writings.
He acted upon my advice. During the course of his lectures in America my form started to appear before him and said to the Americans that Faqir Dayal is standing before me and he guides me. The result was that my form started to appear to many Americans as well. During the last eight years, Americans in co-operation with Dr.I.C. Sharma arranged for my four visits to America. I have visited England twice and Canada once. In all these countries I have expressed my views without any reservations in order to fulfill my promise to my preceptor Hazur Maharishi Shiv Brat Lal Ji Maharaj. I claim not that whatever I have said or say is final. Neither I have claim upon the Manavata Mandir, nor have any attachment with it. I have wished that none of my blood shall ever become a trustee of this Trust of Manavta Mandir, not to speak of anything else. However, they may serve the Mandir like other followers. I shall carry on the duty assigned to me by Data Dayal Ji Maharaj till the last moment of my life.




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The Secret of Secrets

Dayal Faqir

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CHAPTER-1
SAT SANG DATE 3rd. NOVEMBER, 1975
The Hymn and its Essence
0’ Seekers! Satguru (Preceptor) has revealed to me the Secret of Self realization. You can achieve it by Meditation within. Neither there is need to go or a need to come anywhere else. You can achieve it without manual labor, even a deaf& a dumb & a cripple can cross this ocean of life & overcome other obstruction & hurdles with the grace of Guru Radhaswami.
The Hymn
0’ Fellow-Seekers! Sat Guru Disclosed the Reality,
Sit steadfastly within, withdrawn from everywhere,
Why move hand and feet,
When you attain spontaneous union;
Cross mountains as a cripple,
And ascend the highest, peak,
When a dumb can speak in myriad forms, and blow the Devine Conch.
Handless can he do all deeds, Feetless travel the path;
Without tongue relish the taste, by the Satguru's compassion;
Ecstasy prevails wherever mind roams;
And attains primordial trance.
Cross arduous dell of "Bhanwar Gufa",
and reach Truth's Abode;
Un-affected by anguish deep,
Obeying the True Guru;
Taking refuge in Guru Radhaswami,
Preaches the Beauty of Devotion;
RADHASWAMI,
Kuber Nath you have come for the satsang (Community service) I am performing this duty in obedience to my preceptor, His Holiness Data Dayal. His Holiness had ordered me to modify the Mode of Preaching before leaving this corporate frame. In the hymn referred to above is Holiness Data Dayal says, Satguru revealed the Reality" After spending the whole of my life in search of Truth I questioned myself, "What reality have I know?" The SECRET is that I do not manifest myself anywhere. This Reality is the key to Sant Mat; have I manifested myself neither in your sub consciousness nor in your meditation. Holiness Data Dayal did his best to make me understand this Secret but I failed to catch his symbols He did not disclose the Secret because n either the world aspired for it nor deserved it. If this Secret is revealed, then the religious centers cannot flourish, His Holiness did not assign this task to me to exploit the ignorant but to make me realize this Secret. And at last, I have known the Secret.
O, fellow travelers! Satguru revealed the Reality,
Sitting steadfastly within,
Withdrawn from everywhere;
This withdrawal is of two kinds; physical and mental but when one realizes the TRUTH, this process of withdrawal or coming and going comes to an end. Equipoise and tranquility prevail. There was a time when mentally I used to create the holy image of Hazur Data Dayal ji and adore it. But ever since I came to know that my form manifests to different people at different places and fulfils their materialistic and subtle desires, whereas I remain unaware of my manifestations, it convinced me that whatever manifested within me was all illusion. These were nothing but suggestions and impressions. Having known this secret, my SURAT does not long for anything but remains within "SELF' When mind is withdrawn it becomes tranquil. Coming and going here means the attachment of SURAT with any holy form, LIGHT, or SOUND, in unison with mind it is the SURAT that comes and goes.
Why move hand and feet,
You attain easily spontaneous union".
The spontaneous union is to withdraw your SELF from all gross and subtle attachments and to remain within `SELF". You are to struggle hard in order to form a holy image within, and for seeing the LIGHT and listening to the Sound one has to do regular SADHANA (Practice) But when one attains knowledge, the struggle and SADHANA come to an end. At this stage, the individual stands convinced, that he is neither body, nor mind, neither LIGHT nor SOUND.
His Self attains equipoise. But it is not possible to remain in this state for all the time. I wish but I fail. I live in mind as well as in this world realizing that whatever manifests within, is illusion, thus they do not attract my SELF. For example, if the boy is ill, I do not get disturbed knowing that every action has its reaction People from all walks of life come to me. I play with them accordingly and never feel sad. I know about my own self. I do not know how SWAMIJI MAHARAJ or KABIR lived. This is the Secret:-
"Crosses mountains as a cripple
And ascends the highest peak.
A cripple cannot trudge, so how can he cross the mountain? Here the mountain means the mental thoughts and feelings, that are insurmountable I was deeply entangled with them. But the Secret is known to me. I surmount them all The multifarious thoughts that erupt at the time of your SADHANA, do not allow you to become still within, These different thoughts are the mounds or mountains, that you cannot cross But for me they have no existence now, I go far beyond them, because my mind is crippled. No thought now tempts me at the time of SADHANA; I directly ascend to the top. But you people cannot achieve this state at this stage. You are yet to become a cripple still you have mountains of thoughts and desires to cross. This is what I understand by becoming "Crippled". However, I do not claim any finality.
I came to this path at the age of 7 years and today, I am reaching 90. I have spent the whole life In search of TRUTH. The hindrances In the way of self realization are the stages of SAHAS DAL KAMAL, TRIKUTI, SUNNA, MAHASUNNA and BHANVAR GUFA. They are the mountains to be crossed within. For me they have no existence, because I have known the Secret. 0 seekers! You may all get health, wealth and peace. It is you, who have helped me to realize this Secret, and enabled me to understand the Santmat. Manifestations of GURU, god and goddesses form is a veil. Behind the veil lakhs of ignorant people are deluded by different religions, sects and Gurus. Big sectarian and communal centers have come into existence due to this veil and Gurus make fortunes not only for themselves, but for their generations.
"Dumb speaks in myriad forms,
And blows the Anhad conch"
The chiming of the bell, sound of the conch and the Thunder of cloud within are too the mountains in the way of a SADHAK. Only the Anhad SOUND (Divine Sound) is the NAMA. It is a Resonance from your brain. Kuber Nath, you are my Gurubhai. You respect me and love me. My intentions are pure. All my life and my realizations are before me. Therefore, I do not consider that I am wrong. Only this realization that I do not manifest anywhere and to anybody has transformed my life. Because I had pledged to speak my realizations to the world and Hazur Data Dayal ji had ordained me to change the mode of preaching, I speak my experiences of life without any reservations.
I do all deeds without hands,
Feetless travel the path!
Without Tongue relish the taste,
With Satguru's compassion.
Now, when the Secret is known and the path is found, what path is to be trodden? The distance is covered and the destination is reached. Swami Ji had written at one place, that path (Path of spiritual realization) has exhausted the aspirant because he remains attracted by the inner visions or the manifestations and the different SOUNDS of the different stages. He gets pleasure and thus remains stranded in the PATH. But when the Secret of these visions, manifestations and sounds is known, the path is cut short. There remains nothing to tempt you and to stop you from reaching the destination. You jump over and go ahead. This is the BEHANGAM path.
I had a yearning to know the TRUTH.  I loved, worshipped and adored DATA DAYAL ji to the extreme. But the TRUTH and the Secret remained beyond my comprehension. In 1918 A.D. Hazur Data Dayal said to me; "You should never think that by doing this work, you would redeem any distress but by doing this work, you shall have the glimpse of SAT GURU RADHASWAMI DAYAL in the form of Satsangis and they shall redeem you". Now I have had the glimpse. I do not know, whether I am right or wrong. But whatever I have understood, I have said in plain words.
"Ecstasy prevails wherever mind roams
And attains liberation.
Same is the verdict of Sanatan Dharma as:
"Where ever the mind goes,
The Samadhi is there itself.
After knowing this TRUTH man becomes free from all whims and doubts and he attains peace.
‘Crosses is dell of Bhanvar Gufa,
And reaches abode of Truth’
The saints might have known what is meant by Bhanvar Gufa. What I have understood about it? It is that as water makes a whirlpool in a stream and it does not allow anything to go out of its circle, similarly our mind makes a whirlpool of its thoughts within and it becomes its victim. Whirlpool of the stream does not set free even its water and any of its victims. Similarly our inner whirlpool works within and does not allow our mind to go away from its whirl. It is due to the extreme mercy of the Munificent Lord, that I could go beyond the whirl of my mind and now I do not enjoy or suffer the pleasures or the Pains of my inner Bhanwer (whirl).
‘Not aggrieved by deep anguish,
Remain obedient to the enlightened Guru.’
Guru Maharaj ji had ordered me to do this task and by doing this, I have attained peace.
‘Sing today Guru’s virtues,
And thus be delighted
Having compassion, supreme Abode's dweller,
Manifested Himself in human form.’
Because Hazur Maharaj got encouragement and the Secret from Swami Ji Maharaj, therefore he eulogies the merits of Swami Ji Maharaj in these lines is under emotions of happiness. Only he can tell you about the SUPREME ABODE, who himself has been to that ABODE. Hazur Maharaj ji writes that "That Supreme Element has manifested in this body in the form of Guru;
Taught me about Real Self,
And revealed the Secret of the Path;
I do not know, what secret was revealed to Hazur Maharaj by Swami Ji Maharaj, But, what I' have understood about it is explained below. All manifestations, visions and forms that are seen within are your mental creations. Beyond them is LIGHT and SOUND. The object that sees the LIGHT within and listens to the SOUND is the "TRUTH", the "SELF". That object is the SUPREME ELEMENT, the base of the SELF. The "SELF" is your ABODE. From there we have descended to this physical level and engrossed ourselves in this mundane world. The Guru comes and most compassionately directs us to our REAL ABODE. Hazur Data Dayal ji addressed me as:
‘What are you? You are an axis of the universe, O’ manly Faqir!
The entire world rotates around you, under thy influence.’
These words of Data Dayal ji were beyond my understanding. Just to make me understand this REALITY, His Holiness deputed me to do this work. I am neither Guru nor Mahatma. I have no desire to become a Guru. From this work I have understood, that it was my own mind that used to revolve around my "SELF" and my "SELF" was its witness. I am neither LIGHT nor SOUND. LIGHT and SOUND revolve around ME. The OBJECT around which the mind, Light and Sound rotate is the REALITY. That is the MAINSTAY and our origin and beginning. Hazur Data Dayal ji I wrote this hymn for me where as Satsangis helped me to understand it.
Thy SELF is ever separate from
The worldly existence, the existence of I, it is
When you shed attachment, you merge with God."
I, you and everybody is the same object around which the mind, Light and Sound revolve. Our SELF is the REALITY and the rest are its attributes. Some on- says, ‘I am light.’ other one says, ‘I am Brahma.’ This is all a fancy. The Guru explains the TRUTH and REALITY, and by his grace, the TRUTH is realized.
 ‘All these names are thy modes, Thou art the Reality of them all, what is this existence all?
                              'It is the imitation of the Reality,
                Thou art cosmos, than art the truth;
               All else Thy imitations;
         What are contemplation and Knowledge?
         They are all your wisdom.
My Form manifests in America, Africa and in different parts of India, but I remain ignorant about it. Even I remain unaware of the persons who meditate on my Form. I have removed this mask of fancy whereas some other Gurus and religious heads take undue advantage of this myth from their ignorant followers. I do not blame the religious heads and these Gurus, because the followers too feel flattered by this loot and they do not want to get rid of this illusion. They remain attached to the pleasures of ignorance and fail to reach the ABODE,
"Enlightened are all with Thy light,
Sun and Moon and the sky;
All Splendors is the reflection Of Thy Own Presence.
He is the MAINSTAY of all. All the forms that are visualized within, the LIGHT that is seen and the SOUND heard are all due to the SELF. All the Suns, Moons and Stars that are shining within are illuminated by the SELF. Nothing comes from without. The SELF is the Creator of all these things. Without SELF there is void.
Thou art in the wise and the ignorant,
                        Thou take myriad Forms;
        Under their veil,"
Thy Entity is hidden.
The intellect is the creation of Thy SELF. Thou hast created the world the creations are the veils, and I was enveloped by them. These creations are to be removed to find out the SELF. I am highly grateful to Hazur Data Dayal ji who removed all my illusions. In order to carry on the dictates of Hazur Data Dayal ji, I needed a centre. It is due to this fact that I established this Manavta Mandir. I know that due to my plain speaking, Mandir shall face financial difficulties but I am not worried about it. Mandir may or may not flourish. My mission is not to collect money. Had I not spoken this truth, I would have been a man of millions, but my mission is to remove the mask of ignorance. One may or may not take advantage of it.
Heaven Earth and Sky,
All Stand on Thee Alone,
Thou feign ignorance,"
Thou know the unknown."
Data Dayal ji says to me, ‘0, crazy! You know about everything but still you have become ignorant.’
                             Thou art neither wisdom nor Intellect
                             And where art thou lost
                             Lost thee in their game
                             Intoxicated by your own existence
                             Thou awake and sleep
                             But when go above them both
                             You will know then your own real self
My listener companion showed me the Path of Realization, though I had emotion, love and devotion for it. This gentleman (Indicating a man sitting in the Satsang) was in the Indian Army. He suffered illness and the doctors declared him unfit for defense services. He says, “My form manifested in him and blessed him saying, ‘You shall be alright and get employment in the Post Office.” This is what actually happened later on. Now the question is - did I go to say him anything or to bless him. No. But, unfortunately, you do not aspire for what I say. You have desires for the worldly life.
     Therefore you should the path of Vedas.
     Thoughts and intentions should be pure. As you think so you become and your condition depends upon your intentions. The entire game is of your mind. For the progress in worldly life, Sumiran and Dhyan are indispensable. But for a Shabda Yogi this world is not needed.
                             “Verily, thou care not,
                             For this Secret too,
                                    Seen not till today,
                                    A man of thy being
Hazur Data Dayal Ji writes about me that he has not seen a man of my dignity. You might be thinking that Data Dayal Ji has praised me. The meaning of these lines is quite the opposite. Listen what Hazur Maharaj ji attained:-
                                    “Today Guru’s attributes awakened
                                    Thirst and research in me
                                    Having mercy, dweller of the supreme Abode
                                    Manifested Himself in the human form
                                    Revealed to me his own abode
                                    Disclosed to me the Secret of the path.”
            The Guru directs the True aspirants to the abode of self. This abode is unutterable, infinite, unfathomable, unnamed and absolute. We all have descended from there and we are to return there.
                                    Varied descriptions of each stage
                                    Compassionately did explain
                                    Endowing his compassion and support
                                    Attuned mind and Surat to Shabda.
The Guru plains about the different centers of mind and soul and he alone tells about Surat. The greatness of the Guru is sung because he is the only guide to the Supreme Abode.
                                    Chopped the gallows of deed and doubts
                                    Saved me from time and deed
                                    Developing love and faith in mind
                                    Directed me to the Self Abode
We do our utmost to get the peace of mind. But as the Guru reveals the secret the entire struggle for the attainment of peace comes to an end. The Guru by developing devotion and faith in the aspirants directs him to his Real Self. I was in search of Rama and had no peace. His Holiness Data Dayal Ji explained the secret for me as:-
                                    I make you play easy game
                                    Sing Surat Shabad Yoga
     Be thee safe from Time's cradle,
    Tell thee method unique,
With Intellect attend Guru's Satsang,
For the Guru is graceful,
Be a SADHU, understand method,
Go beyond the cradle
Of corporeal frame to Gods Abode.
By rare Luck, you have taken to Satsangat,
Your Step is on the Right Path, Understand it & dispel the Illusion’
I was unable to dispel this Illusion. I was ignorant, about the Reality of this Illusion. For dispelling this Illusion, Data Dayal ji gave me this work.
‘He who has not learnt this Secret from his Guru,
Remains enveloped in this illusion.’
All the inner creations i.e. thoughts, feelings, shapes and forms are not the Reality. They have no existence of their own but still their existence is felt as Reality. If this fact is realized, the entire problem is solved. Swami Ji Maharaj writes:-
"See amidst sky, black lotus blossoming,
The Moth was enticed, ascended there and lost;
This place of deception, remained seeing It, Many Sidh, Nath, Yogi remained seeing it; Time its own net separately spreading,
Whosoever went there, sent him back,
Varied tricks showing, remained there alluring, Earning of all, ever stood snatching,
What! What should I say; it is causing many misfortunes,
Except Sant Satguru, it engulfs one & all?
None could go beyond, remain all entrapped there,
Swinging the cradle of illusion, swings the ascetics,
Beyond door, to none, he allows going,
Thus the Secret of beyond, remained undisclosed,
     The SHESHA & the SHIVA, All stood forlorn,
   Except a saint none found, crossing over to that side,
That Secret Radhaswami, disclosing to one & all, upon whom, he is kind, alone he is having faith
All the forms, images and colors or scenes of SAHASDAL KAMAL, TRIKUTI, SUNNA and MAHASUNNA are nothing but a sport of illusion (Maya) and Time (Kaal).
"From birth to birth, suffers pains, pleasures, and is damned
The different forms, sights and shades that would appear to you at the time of death, shall decide the nature of your next birth. The last thoughts decide transmigration. The cycle of transmigration can be stopped only by KNOWLEDGE, LIGHT, and SOUND. But if you see Baba Faqir, Baba Sawan Singh ji Maharaj, Lord Rama or Lord Krishna at the time of death you shall definitely have the rebirth. Hazur Maharaj ji, the founder of Radhaswami faith has also written the same in his writings, that at time of death, the dying man sees the film of his entire life, his preceptor too appears in that film. The Guru attunes him to the SHABAD also, but still the man spends some time on the other Planets. He gets Satsang and glimpse of his Guru there but when some realized soul (Sant Sat Guru) comes on this earth, that man too takes birth, come in contact with him and by removing his deficiencies, attains salvation. Had I not found TRUTH in Sant Mat, I would have out rightly denounced it. I am a Brahmin and I was the worshipper of Lord Rama and Krishna. But the saints have denounced them as the incarnations of Kaal. The denunciation of my ideals was intolerable to me because I was ignorant. But at the same time I had unshakable faith in Hazur Data Dayal ji. Therefore, I had a vow that I shall sincerely follow this path of Saints and speak my knowledge to the world. Thus I am not doing any favor to you. I am reaping the harvest of my own deeds.
When the child is ignorant the mother holds him fast to her breast. She sometimes even remains naked in his presence. But when he becomes young and gains worldly knowledge, she never uncovers her breast or any other part of her body in his presence. As the mother has nourished the child and- has suffered all pains for him, it becomes the sacred duty of the-grown up child to serve the mother to his best. Similarly, a follower, after attaining True knowledge must do his best to adore and serve his preceptor. If he does not do so, it is ungratefulness. Because I have known this Secret from you, I adore you and serve you to the best of my capacity.
Debauches liberated, wrathful liberated,
Liberated numerous sinners,
Egoist, ungrateful,
Never are liberated even by reciting Name.
Nobody is free from lust and anger on this earth. They all attain liberation except the egoist and the ungrateful. Here egoist means the one who considers the Guru as Baba Faqir or Hazur Baba Sawan Singh ji. Guru is not the physical body. Guru is your own self. He was never separate from you. He is never separate and He shall never be. But this TRUTH is not easily understood.
I have understood this truth from my Satsangis. Therefore, I am not ungrateful to them. I got this Secret from a fellow traveler Sh. Gopi Lal Krishak. I served him and paid all his expenses as long as he stayed in the Mandir. Now I am doing my best to serve another such companion Dayal Das and you all to the best of my capacity. I am highly grateful to you because your experiences helped me to comprehend the unintelligible.
‘Compassionately he pulled me,
And kept me at his feet.’
I was sincerely in search of TRUTH. His will took me to the hallowed feet of Data Dayal ji. Therefore, you should develop a sincere desire. Guru shall himself come to you or guide you in one or the other form.
‘Had he not been kind to me,
I should have been in Time's net’
Hazur Maharaj ji writes that had Swami Ji Maharaj not been Kind to him, he would have remained in the trap of Time (Kaal) and illusion (Maya).
I am powerless, losing how Thy greatness,
Owned me with compassion
This is how Hazur Maharaj expresses his gratefulness to his Guru Maharaj and does not claim any credit for himself. Kuber Nath, you are my Gurubhai. This world is based on the principle of give and take. Those who owe me shall pay and whom I owe, shall get.
“O’ Fellow Travelers, Satguru revealed the Reality
Whatever I have gained and whatever I have understood is explained to you. Now it is for you to brood and act.
Radhaswami to all.
 
CHAPTER II
Sat Sang Dated 4th. November, 1975
 
The Hymn
"He who searched alone found, 0’ Fellow-Seekers! The Mine of Nam's Gems, The Mine is open in the mind's mountain,
Pry the Sat Guru's grace,
With love's spade do inward devotion;
Only few Realized Souls do it
The Pure Digging mind attains precious gem,
Name’s gems the pleasure giver,
Poverty, grief then comes not near;
Mind remains ever pleased,
Go to Satsang, have Secret from Guru;
Leave thou the company evil,
Dedicated and surrendered to Radhaswami's feet,
You become Enlightened.
RADHASWAMI.
After listening to this hymn, I question myself, "Faqir, have you attained the gem of Nama?" Had there been His Holiness Data Dayal Ji I would have asked him about his Wealth of Nama? His Holiness writes:-
‘Searcher alone found Gems of Name’s mine.’
I have been searching this mine of Name’s gems since long and now I am 89 year. What did I find?
The Mine is opened in the mind's mountain,
By the Sat Guru's kindness
His Holiness writes that the mine is opened in the mountain of mind. What do I understand from it? I explain to you my own experiences. Kuber Nath, you have come. Every month you send me Rs.200.00. I am a truth-lover. I wanted to see what an individual can achieve from Nama? If SHABAD is considered the Nama which is unbreakable sound (Dhunatmac sound) then I dare not say it. Why? Because even after listening to that unbreakable sound, when I come down to the physical level, I see the visions. Many a time I see the good scenes and sometime bad scenes in my dreams. I wish the modern Gurus should present their true self to their followers, so that the ignorant may not be exploited.
This night I had a dream in which I saw running trains. An accident occurred, I carried my luggage. My father, whom I was afraid of, met me ahead. Then I met my mother, my first wife was also sitting there. I enquired from my wife, "What about your wounded leg? Is your leg now alright? Are you not my wife?" Meanwhile I awoke and attuned myself to the SHABAD (inner Sound).
From such experiences, I understand that the mind of a man who undertakes the practice of SURAT SHABAD YOG (Union of soul with God) does not become impregnable to the old Samskaras. Do the old Samskaras not magnify themselves in his dream? They do. I sent three registered letters to Baba Sawan Singh ji regarding dreams and enquired from him whether he saw dreams? If yes, of what nature. He did not reply my letters. During the last years of his life, when his brother expired Data Dayal ji wrote one of his dreams in a book. In that dream Data Dayal ji had written that he enquired from his late brother, "Where do you live?" It proves that even the saints of the stature of His Holiness Data Dayal ji, Param Sants, Mahatmas and those who attune themselves to the unbreakable sound are not free from the influence of the old Samskaras. They do bud forth in the sub-conscious mind of the great spiritualists as well. All these deeds, thoughts and feeling where selfish motives are involved shall positively have the reaction upon the individual concerned either in awaking or in sleep. Why do I say it? This is my experience. Ever since the establishment of Manvta Mandir I have never dreamt about it. I have never seen Kuber Nath, Durga Dass, Munshi Ram, Gopal Dass or any other Satsangi in my dreams though I meet thousands of Satsangis here and in my tours. Why? For, I am neither attached to Mandir nor to any one of you. I have no selfish motive to achieve from the Mandir or through any of the Satsangis. I have got good wishes for all of you and love for you. I do not involve my Self in this game. This mother (indicating to an old lady sitting in the Satsang) looks after me, serves me and adores me, but she has never appeared in my dreams. But why my father, mother, wife and railway trains appear time and again in my dreams? For, my Self was attached to them. My Self had developed love for them. My Self had owned them. The impressions of ownership entertained by me for many years do not stop magnifying even today after a lapse of many years. What is the solution then to remove these impressions and free yourself from the grief, disturbance and whims? If you are not free from them you are not liberated. What is that Nama which liberates you?
“0’ Fellow Travelers, while there is life there is hope,
Those Selfish Gurus who promise Salvation after Death,
Give false Hope."
The gurus who advise their followers to recite Nama and assure them that they would lead them at the time of death are false. They are most selfish. Can these gurus liberate you? Kabir writes:-
,'Mind leads to bondage, mind liberates,
And Mind gives Happiness & Bliss."
Kabir writes that mind is the cause of bondage and mind is the cause of the liberation. If mind is all in all, then what does Nama do? Nama is the EXPERIENCE, THE REALISATION and the KNOWLEDGE which I have gained from your company. It is that I do not manifest anywhere. Whatever manifests within me or within you is not the REALITY. Manifestations are nothing but the impressions and suggestions that are ingrained upon our mind and we have accepted them as the Reality. Till an individual is not firmly convinced that these manifestations and visions are only the reflections of the ingrained impressions, the individual cannot attain Self Realization. This is the essence of the realizations of my life of 90 years.
Kuber Nath, you came. I have love and good wishes for you. He (indicating another man) came. You serve me and he too serves me. Today morning, I questioned myself, “Have you attained Self Realization?” People say that unbreakable sound within is Nama and generally this view is accepted. It is not so. This unbreakable sound (resonant inner sound) is in fact a means to the ULTIMATE. It is a means of search. His Holiness Data Dayal writes:-
‘The searcher alone found, 0’ Fellow travelers,
The mine of Name’s gem’
Why did I make search for Nama? I became introvert in search of ‘SOMETHING’ I visualized forms, worshipped Rama, Krishna, Bhagwan and searched the formless from within. During this research, I used to enjoy the glimpse of different forms and see the different scenes. I used to talk to these forms as well. What was all this? It was all the search of mind. It was a search to find and reach that ABODE. I heard the tinkling of bells, blowing of the conch, saw light and heard sound within. Whatever I visualized and heard within was all a search of mind. After having the long search within I could attain Nama, and that too due to the experiences of the Satsangis. Nama is nothing but the Experience, the Realization. Radhaswami Dayal also defines Nama as:-
"SURAT and SHABAD are both experiences of Realization,
And thou art only buried in the well of doubts & superstitions."
Those who attune the Self to the Sound and consider SOUND as the Ultimate but do not have the enlightenment; in fact they too remain without the attainment of Nama. Why? I narrate to you an incident. What happens in dreams? I go to my bed, attune myself to the SOUND and develop attachment with the LIGHT within. But how long do I remain in that state? Ultimately, I fall asleep and enter the state of dreams. Sometimes, I become conscious that I am seeing the dreams, but sometime I do not. In my dreams, I generally see trains, listen to the SOUND and see the LIGHT. Sometimes, my wife, father, mother and rarely son appear in my dreams. I see nothing more than them in my dreams. If, even after listening to the SOUND, the individual does not experience the Reality of these visions, forms, LIGHT and SOUND, the individual remains without Nama, This is my experience. I may be wrong. It is due to this fact that I wish that the modern saints and Mahatamas should speak their practical life to their followers. I wish them to tell how they face the realities of life in 24 hours day. So what I have understood about Nama is the true knowledge of the feelings, visions, shades and images that are seen within. This knowledge, that all the creations of the awaking, dreaming, deep sleep, consciousness and super-consciousness, are nothing but the Samskaras, and that it is all the creation of mind, is realization. What to speak about others, even I am not aware of my own Self. Who knows what may happen to me at the time of death? I may enter the state of unconsciousness, enter the state of dreams and see Railway trains. How can I make a claim about my attainment of the ULTIMATE? The truth is that I know nothing. After listening to this hymn of Hazur Data Dayal ji, an idea struck in my mind, "You Faqir advise and preach to others, have you yourself attained Nama?"
‘The searcher alone found, 0’ Fellow travelers,
               The mine of Name’s gem’
When I claim I am Sant Sat Guru Waqt (Saint of the time) then, am I not supposed to ask myself about my own achievement? Yes, I am. For me Nama is knowledge. This realization is Nama that the inner stages of SAHASDAL KAMAL, TRIKUTI, SUNNA and MAHASUNNA are all Kaal and Maya. They do not have any existence of their own, but are illusions. Whatever is seen within is one's own thought and one's own mind. It is your own mind that manifests in the form of Baba Faqir. Your own mind solves your problems, but you give credit to me.
Vyas Narayan, the astrologer, is sitting here. When he was in Ujjain, my form appeared to him and solved many of his worldly problems. He came here, and narrated to me all his incidents. I never knew him before. Now the question is who manifested to him and solved his problems? This is all the game of mind and nothing else. Kuber Nath, listen. What I have understood about Nama is:-
‘The Mine is opened in mind's mountain
By the Satguru's blessings’
 
Mind governs up to fourteen stages. Swami Tulsi Dass also writes as:-
"Rays of mental perception reaches where,
Creations of illusion extend up to there."
So my entire struggle has ended with this conclusion, that the creations of mind are ephemeral. They are the reflections of the impressions and suggestions that are imprinted upon our mind. When the illuminating soul ascends to a particular stage these impressions and suggestions get magnified and become visible within, just as the film is magnified with the help of a particular lens and focuses light in a cinema house. In a cinema hall you see the running horses, fights and dancing women on the serene. You enjoy the scene as if they were real. Many people feel happy when there is some good scene and weep when there is some tragic scene. Where-as actually there is nothing on the screen except the magnified photos of a film. Similarly, the ignorant feel happy or aggrieved by the inner mental visions. With a joyful thought they get delighted and with a sorrowful thought they feel afflicted. So Nama is the attainment of "Gyan" Knowledge and Equanimity. This stage can be attained only after having a constant search within.
"With love's spade, do inward devotion,
Dig some few enlightened."
Make a devoted search of the various stages of SADHANA within and see what is hidden in your mind. I tell you another important thing i.e. the results of SADHANA of each individual shall never be the same. When a man meditates, the Samskaras imprinted upon his mind get magnified and take the different forms, different shades and different Sounds. Some one sees Vishnu ji others see, Lord Rama and still others see Lord Krishna or the Guru within. Ask any Christian or Muslim, if they see Lord Rama in their meditation or dreams? If Lord Rama is really all pervading, then His image must also manifest invariably to Muslims and Christian as well? Lord Krishna and lord Shiva must have also appeared to the men of other faiths. But, they do not. Similarly, Jesus Christ and Prophet Mohammad do not manifest to the Hindus. Why is it so? Because Muslims and Christians do not have the Samskaras of Hindus gods and the Hindus do not have the Samskaras of Prophet Mohammad and of Jesus Christ. Manifestations that appear to you are the magnified forms of your own Samskaras. There is nothing from without. I had the glimpse of Lord Rama and Vishnu ji many a time. I have enjoyed the visions of Hindu gods. Why did it so happen? It was due to two factors. Firstly, I had read Ramayana and secondly, being a Brahmin I had the Hindu Samskaras. So, as and when I sat for meditation I saw the magnified forms of these very Samskaras. It is due to this fact that much emphasis is given upon good Samskaras and the Satsang of the realized Guru. Time and again it is advised to make a search for the Realized, Realized and the Realized Guru. Study the writings of Guru Nanak or the writings of Swami Ji Maharaj. They too have preached for the same. The realized Guru here means, a guru who gives you the True knowledge reveals to you the Secret and develops your discriminative faculty.
"Digging mind attains precious gem
Of Nama, 'the pleasure giver,"
I know not the meaning of these lines. I may be wrong. Had there been His Holiness Data Dayal Ji I would have asked him about what he meant by Nama. His Holiness is not here now, only his writings are with me. His writings give me peace of mind or say I interpret his writings according to my own satisfaction. There is no other Mahatma who dare say the TRUTH. I told you that I wrote three registered letters to Baba Sawan Singh ji and received no reply. How could he reply? Had he written the TRUTH, his Dera would have suffered a great loss. Truth is always bitter. If you say the Truth, you would not be respected or liked. Kuber Nath, you have come. An opium eater would tell the benefits of the opium to his visitors and a wine addict would praise the drinks. I tell you about the path that I have trodden. Make one, as your ideal and have faith that He is Munificent and the Mainstay of the entire creation. Surrender your life to Him and live happily-You cannot avoid the reactions of your past Samskaras, undergo them cheerfully. There is no other solution except enjoying them. I cannot help you but your own intentions, your own devotion, your own true cravings and your own faith shall help you. I speak to you the SUPREME TRUTH. Do you understand, Leela? (Pointing to a lady in the Satsang) You have spent the whole of your life in Beas, Agra and Hoshiarpur. Try to understand the Truth. I hive told you about the entire struggle of my life, and today I have reached this conclusion that there is a SUPREME MASTER, and His sport is Infinite. Now neither I accept LIGHT nor SOUND) as the Guru. I live at His will. Who knows what will happen after death?
"Poverty, grief then does not come near,
Mind remains ever pleased."
When it is realized that all the thoughts, feelings and Samskaras that arise from within, do not have any existence of their own, then why get aggrieved and why get pleased. If your grief is not to last for a long period, then happiness too does not remain permanently. Both grief and happiness are hypothetical. Realization of this fact is the attainment of JEEVANMUKTA State (Liberation in life). According to the philosophy of saints and sages, the Jeevan Mukta state cannot be attained without the True knowledge (GYANA) but, this True Knowledge cannot be attained till individual does not make a thorough search of his mind. What is the search of the mind? There is a centre of multi forms in the mind. There is TRINITY in the mind, there is duality in the mind and there is non-duality in the mind. These are the centers of Mind as there are multiple forms in the SAHASDAL KAMAL, in TRIKUTI there are meditator, meditation and the meditative and in MAHASUNNA there is non-duality. This is the entire game of Mind, and it has to be searched.
"Go to Satsang, have Secret from the Guru,
Desert thou the company evil."
Now, you yourself listen what His Holiness Data Dayal ji writes in these lines. What would you gain from the company of the Guru? You will gain Secret, the Truth. But unfortunately, every individual does not deserve it. Only rare personalities aspire for it. If you start teaching sexology to a child of 6 or 7 years will he understand anything about it'? No. He will not. If you teach the subject of Atomic energy to a student of 8th class, he will not understand it. Similarly, this Secret can also not be understood by every Individual. There are stages and classes in each aspect of life. Therefore I do not denounce anybody or any class. Every saint or Guru is right in his own place. But only that Guru is not doing the right thing who does not speak the truth, for his selfish motives, fame and name. Such a Guru is guilty. This old lady (indicating a lady in the Satsang) though does not aspire for the Truth, yet I give her good wishes according to her nature so that she may have peace of mind. The Truth and the Secret is known by the rare. In Sant Mat, greatness is of the Secret. Swami Ji Maharaj writes:-
"Guru revealed now the Secret of the Unknown,
Surat ascended leaving state of doubt,
Realized the Secret of Separation,
Deviations ended of all vicissitude,
Clouds of mercy started showers,
The Net of Transmigration vanished,
Broken the net of inaccessible,
Attained the pleasure with each breath, attained today the fruit of Self restraint,
Mind became the Moth of white lotus, burnt the sense of modesty and shame;
Cut the snare of rules and religion,"
Tulsi Dass says:-
"Without Satsang there is no Realization,
Without God's, grace it is not attainable,
"Discriminative power" is another name or the Secret. However, there is a great difference between one and the other Secret (gross, subtle and causal Secrets). One may be aspirant of one Secret, the other for the other Secret and still another may not be an aspirant of any Secret. I have great drawback that I speak about the highest state and ordinary people do not follow me.
"Dedicated & surrendered to Radhaswami's feet,
I became Enlightened."
Hazur Data Dayal ji writes, "Dedicated and surrendered to Radhaswami's feet". The world considers these feet (pointing to feet) as the human feet of Radhaswami. He does not mean these feet. The feet of Guru, is the LIGHT within. His Holiness writes that he is dedicated to the LIGHT which is the Real feet of Radhaswami, And the form of Radhaswami, is the SOUND (SHABHD), unless an individual undertakes the SADHANA of LIGHT within, he remains devoid of Guru's feet. You may wash my feet as many times as you like and drink the water, but it would not help you at all till you do not catch the LIGHT within. Today's Satsang is meant more for me to know if I have Realized God.
Now I give you another proof of what I have said, In the book "ADHBHUTUPASNA YOGA" His Holiness data Dayal ji writes in the last hymn, "When in your SADHANA, you start to see the LIGHT and listen the SOUND within, then try to make a search for the guide (Guru) for further guidance. Therefore, the SADHANA of SURAT SHABDA YOGA is not the ULTIMATE aim. It is a mean to attain the ULTIMATE aim. It is simply a search of the mind, Guru is Knowledge (Gyana) and knowledge is Guru.
"Understood none the Guru's form,
Enveloped in doubt the ignorant,
Thinking Guru Human being;
Indulge in devotional ceremony,
Such mortals are very ignorant;
How can they cross the ocean of existence (Bhav?)
They are proud of the body.
Thinking that Guru is Human being,
Receive the cool beatitude, (blessing)
They are all alike a cattle, Steeped in suspicion,
Know not the Guru Element."
You consider me as your Guru. I feel this responsibility. It is admitted that you send financial help to the Mandir. May He give you more. I do not disagree with this principle of making offers. But I do not want to get anything by keeping you in the dark. In this very hymn, it is written, "Understand none the Guru's form," So I wish to explain to you.
‘Prudence cannot be attained without Satsang,
Without His Grace, it is not easily available,
Only he gets the Satsang upon whom He is gracious.
Thinking Guru a human being,
Individual make judgments,
Such are ignorant rustics,
Remain engrossed in world,
Entrapped in trap of ignorance,
The ignorant is enveloped in doubt’
I myself was in the dark. I too considered physical body as the Guru's form. In order to redeem me and to remove my very Ignorance, His Holiness Data Dayal ji gave me this task. I still remember the days when His Holiness Data Dayal ji visited Giddarwaha. There I had said to Data Dayal ji, "Now you shall abandon your body." His Holiness, laughed and said, "Yes Faqir, whatever you have said is correct. All my deeds have exhausted but yours are still there. Continue doing this work. You shall have the glimpse of Radhaswami Dayal in the form of your Satsangis and you shall attain the Sublime state." I refused to do this work. His Holiness Data Dayal ji again said, "You have not yet reached your destination. This work shall redeem you." Now your kindness has redeemed me. Only due to you I have been able to understand the Secret. I have known the object for which I had been searching.
"Thinking Guru a human being, Follow others like sheep,
Why should they abandon the bondage?
Steeped in worldliness,
Fallen in the Yoni's mine,
They are drowned in ignorance.
The ideal is the name of Guru,
Guru is destination of the mind,
He who beholds not destination and ideal,
Understand Him the most unwise,
Knows the thing of his own mind;
Steeped in ignorance
Guru's faith ever remain in mind,
The Mine of possible and impossible;
He who has not this understanding,
Is like a fool,
Who recognized not Guru's form?
Enveloped in doubt
The Disciple remains in the mind,
Guru at the vertex of Conscience;
He who beholds the both in SELF,
Is the Guru's servitor,
Who remains resolutely fixed to only Guru's feet,
Is steeped in ignorance.
Now you yourself decide as to who is the servitor of the Guru? He who serves Baba Faqir, do you think he is the real servitor of the Guru? No, only he is the real servitor of the Guru who has the faith that his Guru is always within him. Kuber Nath, do you understand? You have come for Satsang. Probably, what I say is beyond the comprehension of the people, and they are unable to develop such a faith. But those who are inclined towards spiritual living and have attained nothing so far, would definitely benefit if they carry the impression in their mind, of what I have said, this knowledge will stand by you in your old age. I shall leave this world. I am distributing precious wealth in the form of knowledge. This knowledge shall help you at that time and not the Baba Faqir. It is my word that shall lead you out of ignorance and illusion and not me who remains at Hoshiarpur. The true knowledge shall lead your SURAT to the Ultimate.
"SURAT is disciple, & SHABAD is Guru,
And SHABDA is the Guru's form;
Without the Recognition of Shabda Guru,
Drowned in doubt's well,
Such people waste their life, Steeped is Ignorance."
It is said that Guru imparts Knowledge and the Guru is SHABAD. Therefore, unless the SURAT of an individual ascends up with meditation (as described in the previous hymn of His Holiness Data Dayal ji to the state of SOUND, he cannot attain the true knowledge. Intellectually, you may know everything from my Satsang, but practically you shall remain ignorant. So never abandon your Practice at any cost. Sit for meditation for as much time as possible both in the evening and the morning.
Once I went to Lahore. I had an unflinching faith in His Holiness Data Dayal ji I got up early in the morning and did not do meditation. I still remember that scene; His Holiness came and asked, "Faqir, Have you not meditated today?" I replied, "No. Maharaj, when I am sitting at your feet, where is the necessity of meditation?" His Holiness laughed and said, "Practice daily, you shall realize the worth of this practice in your old age. Now I realize that whatever His Holiness said to me at that time is perfectly correct. So mind it. Never miss your daily practice. Sit for as much time you can. Transcend inward and continue searching your mind.
"Guru is the embodiment of Knowledge,
Guru is essence of Knowledge;
Beholds who the access and faith in Guru,
Suffers not again the weight of existence,
Attains the state of a Lotus,
He, who is still steeped in ignorance, will not understand it.
What is knowledge of His Holiness Data Dayal ji, I do not know? I speak what I have understood. My knowledge (Gyana) is that whatever buds forth or manifests within is nothing but illusion.
The suggestions and the impressions are not the REALITY. Till this fact is not known, the weight of existence (Bhav) does not vanish. Yesterday, too I explained to you that all the games of mind, conscience, intellect and ego is existence (Bhav) After knowing, that all the inward thoughts, feelings and manifestations are not a fact but a fancy, I do not get tempted by them. This is what I understand about True knowledge.
"Radhaswami Sat Guru Saint,
Spoke the word explicitly,
He who did not accept the word,
Entangled in worldly Net,
Will not understand this word;
When people are enveloped in doubt and in ignorance.
So Kuber Nath! You came; I have given you the Satsang. Be happy. Whatever is within my control and whatever I can do, I do. I do not perform miracles. You believe me as your Guru. There in is your redemption. His Holiness Data Dayal ji had said, "Faqir, you have ninety-nine vices, but one virtue i.e. of Truth, You will have the glimpse of Radhaswami Dayal in the form of Satsangis. Really I have had the glimpse of Radhaswami in your form. The Truth is that "Your own self is your real Guru." I have spoken the Truth to you. Now it is your sweet will to serve me or not to serve me. I have done my duty. I have not deceived anybody. I have not kept anybody in the dark.
RADHASWAMI TO ALL
 
CHAPTER- III

Sat Sang Dated 5th. November, 1976
RADHASWAMI
My Gurubhai, Kuber Nath is here. When two brothers meet after a long separation, they share joys and sorrows of each other. A flood of affection becomes visible. I do not know, with what aim and intentions Kuber Nath went to Hazur Data Dayal ji. I know about my intention alone. I had a desire to see Lord Rama and to reach the SOURCE of my "SELF". I worshipped and adored His Holiness Data Dayal ji as incarnation of Lord Rama. He corrected me & transformed my thinking according to the tenets of Sant Mat and initiated me to Guru Mat. Since then onwards I have been giving many a talk on my experiences and realizations without any reservations.
Now the question is, whether I am satisfied with whatever I have said or known? Indeed, I have happiness. I enjoy Bliss and I have attained equipoise, but still I donor feel gratified. I think you cannot understand what I am saying. Some yearning within an individual always yearns for "SOMETHING", when that desired "SOMETHING" is achieved, it still desires for "SOMETHING MORE". This yearning is not pacified. You study the events of my life. In my childhood I had a desire to see Lord Rama. I worshipped his image as of God. Later, I desired to see him in the human from and enjoyed the glimpse of Hazur Data Dayal ji as such. But craving for "SOMETHING MORE" is still there and ' the most astonishing aspect is that it is not known what this "SOMETHING MORE" is?
Zauk says that ‘In this Life's ocean, life's boat is sailing,
That place becomes its destination wherever it touches the shore.’
The main factor for the development of various religions and sects is the fact, that the founders of these religions propounded that stage as the ultimate destination where they attained happiness and BLISS. They preached the same method and the same way to others through which they themselves achieved BEATIFICATION. Gradually this process led to the Creation of different sects and faiths. Unfortunately, none of these profounder ever disclosed that their achievement was not permanent. They did know their shortcomings and weaknesses but they dared not speak them to their followers. I have not kept anything hidden from you. I have spoken the TRUTH in plain words. There is ego within which yearns for moorage somewhere. His Holiness Data Dayal ji writes in one of his hymns:-
“Attachment goes not from my mind.”
I have told you that I have been treading a long distance. I enjoy peace and happiness. I see the LIGHT and listen to the SOUND within. But still my craving or search for SOMETHING MORE" persists. Struggle is going on within for "SOMETHING UNKNOWN.?' My Gurubhai is here. I am fortunate to have him here with me and talk to him. The TRUTH is that inspire of my SHABAD YOGA, austerities, honest living and experience of the highest spiritual stages, search is still going on His Holiness Data Dayal ji Also writes:-
"Attachment goes not from my mind,
None is mine, I am of none;
Nothing within me is mine;
Of no use is intellect & understanding,
Because I say mine and thine;
Vanishes not with lakhs of efforts,
“Nothing brought I with me, nothing I will
Take with me,
Whatever has come to me came during the journey of life.
 
This is understood.
With contemplation, hearing & speaking."
What is that which accompanies the man when he comes to this world? Is it the family? No. Neither there was body nor MIND nor LIGHT nor SOUND. They are all the later creations. Therefore, they too have not accompanied me.
"SOUND hidden, remained unnamed;
Manifested, it became Nama,
Therefore, I brought nothing with me,
"Bondage of mine and thine,
Bonded with mythical bond;
This bond not cut by cutting,
How much efforts made,
By Yoga, skill and SADHAN."
There is one crude bondage i.e. he is my father and she is my mother. This lady is my wife and that boy is my son. But there is another and subtle bond, i.e. I am LIGHT, I am SOUND I am DEVOTEE, I am FOLLOWER I am SWAMI, and I am the SOUL.
"What you bring, what you take along
Is known to all,
Feign ye ignorance;
What fantastic wonder,
Liberated none from this bondage
Of body, mind, wealth,
SADHAN, YOGA & KNOWLEDGE;
0, Radhaswami, Be Kind now,
May tranquility prevail in mind,
Ego vanishes and attachment from Life."
 
So far, there is existence of life, it may be physical, mental and spiritual existence or existence of sound, the attachment does not vanish. It simply changes its form. Thoughts and feelings are changed but attachment does exist. This is the real realization of my life that I am speaking to my Gurubhai, Dear Kuber Nath ji. Probably, others may not be able to understand it.
Now the question is what should be done to remove this attachment from our existence. I have lived at various stages of physical, mental and spiritual life. When a person for a certain period, enjoys a particular stage of life, he starts developing an attitude of indifference towards that stage. For example, you marry a woman with great pomp and show. You feel happy and enjoy your married life to your satisfaction. Then a stage comes, when you do not enjoy the pleasure of your primary married life, and you do not feel any charm in that life. A man starts a business. He develops it to its highest glory and earns millions of rupees. But ultimately, he too feels tired of that lucrative business. Similarly, I have done too much of SADHANA. Now I wish to leave it. But it shall remain, till my body, mind, LIGHT and SOUND exists. Whatever shall remain after the end of my body, mind, LIGHT and SOUND, is my "SELF," my origin. Therefore, live happily as long as you live. Be happy in every condition. This is the only key to have peace of mind, in this world. You are to forget all. But this is possible only:
"Make me drink thy devotion's cup, May attachment disappear,"
You are my true Satguru. That man, S. R. Gulwade, (pointing a man in the congregation) has come from Bombay. Sometime back my image appeared within him and it helped him to cross the stages of SAHASDAL KAMAL, TRIKUSI, SUNNA, and MAHASUNNA. Kuber Nath, when he disclosed it to me, I was compelled to ponder, if I really helped him. No, I do not know. Experiences of such Satsangis brought me face to face with Reality. So
1 am bound to accept them as my Guru the real destination is
:
"Make me drink Thy devotion's cup, May attachment disappear;
Neither wisdom nor awareness remain, Let my ego disappear;
Neither recital nor penance, nor Meditation nor contemplation;
Tread neither the Path of Yoga's skill, No Name’s rosary 'in the hand;
Should lose the heart's rosary bead,
It is not Love which causes pain,
Not renunciation if it chain's,
No menace of bond and liberation,
Should transcend barriers of home& penance,
Should rise above Joys & sorrows;
Of Mind's duality, exist no fear,
No urge for knowledge & meditation;
Sadhu's thought should also go,
No conflict of duality, non-dua1ity as so;
No tumult of non-duality, duality. Bowing to Radhaswami's feet;
Should even lose the thought of servitude,"
Kuber Nath, the thought of follower, devotee and disciple should also vanish. When shall the egoism come to an end? While life and entity both will merge into each other. When will they end? They come to an end-when I meditate. But whom? My own SELF. He, who worships His Holiness Data Dayal ji, Baba Faqir ji and Baba Sawan Singh ji, cannot achieve this goal. The Guru only guides. He tells you about your ideal and the real aim of life. Our destination is that stage where neither I nor you nor Rama nor Rahim, neither the Guru nor the disciple exists. What is that stage? I often enjoy that stage but, for a short while. That stage is defined as stage of SOUNDLESSNESS, LIGHTLESSNESS, and UNNAMED ABODE TIMELESS & imperishable. I have been doing the practice of ascending this sublime state. But whether, the ascending to this sublime state is within my power? Here I fail to make any comment. But, however, I understand that ascending to this stage is not within one's own power. There is some supreme power that takes me to that SUBLIME STATE and sends me back to this physical and mental existence. That state is only our ULTIMATE ABODE.
Kuber Nath, you are my Gurubhai. I have all regards for you. I am a traveler still on my journey. Whatever is being done is all by His will. Everyone is guided by his or her nature or fortune. We are all to reach this SUPREME ABODE, about which Kabira writes as I —
"0, Friend, that dwelling, distinct from all; Dwells where our PURUSHA SUPREME,
Neither sorrow nor pleasure there; nor true nor false,
Nor exists virtue nor sin; neither day & night there,
Nor moon & sun;
Illumination without light,
Neither knowledge, nor meditation; neither penances, nor recitation,
Neither speech nor sacred scriptures!
Nor deeds persistence, profound dwelling, it is all wonder there;
Neither home nor homeless,
Neither in nor out;
Neither body nor Universe there,
Five elements, three modes neither; SOUND witnesses not 'there,
Neither root, flower, nor seed nor creeper
Fruit pleasing without a tree,
Oang, Sohang, nor above and amidst; Breathing evident not there,
Neither absolute nor manifested, 0, Brother; neither gross nor subtle,
Neither decaying nor imperishable 0 Brother
these are myths of the world,
Where Purusha there is nothing; Says Kabira 'tis known to me,
And, He who takes my hint; attains the salvation."
In this hymn Kabira gives his verdict that there exists NOTHING. But my findings are that neither Kabira nor anybody else has succeeded to know IT. None has been able to have access to the Supreme Lord. When a man loses his own entity in search of God, he feels that there is nothing and thus he pronounces that there is Nothing Reality is that none has been able to recognize HIM. Everybody has spoken about Him according to his own understanding. I have reached at this conclusion that the Supreme Lord is an "ELEMENT". The entire world appears to be real because of Him. It is His play. Whatever is to happen, will happen. We are helpless. By reaching this conclusion I have attained peace. My entire' struggle has come to an end knowing that it is "What it is". Kabira writes:
"If say one, He is not,
Saying two is abusing,
He is what He is,
Says the Knowing Kabira"
At least I have not reached my, Destination and possibly none has ever reached it. Life is going on smoothly. What will happen after death? Nobody knows. This realization gives me peace. Now I do not make any effort, but, however a feeling of losing the Self entity still persists. His Holiness Data Dayal ji writes about the technique of leading a happy life:-
"Who is happy in this world?
Happy is only one, the Faqir,
Happy are not the richest;
Men of heavy stocks and wealth, Renounced world, renounced that state (Ukva) Renounced the Lord too as well,
Renounced the renunciation,
Heart satiated with renunciation,"
Man develops a sense of indifference towards a particular work or enjoyment after doing or enjoying it for a particular period.
Blessed too with sight of oneness, after seeing the creation,
Advances forward day and night;
To complete the journey of the world,"
What is this Oneness? I understand. It is the Supreme Element. You may name it Rama, Lord or Radhaswami or give it any name you like. Be convinced with this fact that the entire creation is His game and enjoy happy and peaceful life. The LIGHT of this ELEMENT permeates from the lowest end of this universe to its highest top.
"What is this world? It is a dream; and a dream too, of Faqir,*
Wealth, pelf and in riches;
He is not at all involved,"
Had I even an iota of greed for worldly wealth or fame, I would not have disclosed this Secret.
"Mingled into dust this entire world; Dust remains here forever,
He remains is ecstasy;
Every time morn and eve,
Faqir neither worships nor is worshipped;
He is free from this show,
Happy appearance joyful heart; ever pure in his heart,
Whom you see in this state; accept him as true Faqir,
He is the Leader of both worlds,
He is the seer of the two worlds."
What are these two worlds? They are the games of body and mind. A Faqir knows the Secret and nature of this game of body and mind. Whosoever aggrieved comes to him, he gives his seasoned advice according to the circumstances and nature of the aggrieved man. His advice always proves fruitful. What do I do? This is what I do:—
"Whatever I did realize;
I lay down here for you,
You had spread to me thy begging hands (Daman); they are being filled today;
Merged am I in my SELF;
Ye too should merge one day,
Ye shall attain thy destination,
It is disclosed just today".
What is the destination? The destination is that stage
Where the individual loses his entity and mingles with the
ENTIRE. However, so far I have not been able to mingle
In that ENTIRE. My efforts for the ultimate merger are still
going on.
"That is why above all others,
I am proud of ye; ye will illuminate Nama,
This is the voice of my heart,"
What is meant by illuminating the Nama? It is illuminating the name of His Holiness Data Dayal ji? No. It means the revealing of the TRUTH, to the world. And what this TRUTH is? It is that what are we are and from where have we come? My brother, Kuber Nath, the stage where I have reached is:-
"Lips opened and closed,
This is the Secret of life."
With this conclusion all my struggle has come to an end, you have come. This is not a task of one day. Who knows how many births I have taken to reach at this conclusion? So continue your efforts and try to live a carefree and cheerful life, whatever is to happen, must happen.
My Satsang of 2 and 1/2 hours is better than 100 years devotion, those who want world/ progress, I appeal to them that it is their own mind that shall give them worldly progress. Therefore keep your mind and thoughts pure and constructive. Whatever you gain is the fruit of your own desires. You have come here. I have good wishes for you. I never say it to anybody that you should attain salvation. What I wish is "HEALTH, WEALTH& PEACE" to you.
Radhaswami to all.
CHAPTER IV
Sat Sang Dated 6th. November, 1975
My brother, Kuber Nath is here. He has all the love for me. I do not know to which destination my consciousness is leading me. My whole life is spent in search of something. The SUPRME WILL took me to the hallowed feet of His Holiness Data Dayal ji, who in initiated me to the Sant Mat. At that time, I had pledged that I shall speak my experiences to the world. Kuber Nath, in these Satsang (Spiritual discourses) I have spoken to you, all my experiences that I have had. Kuber Nath, you are going tomorrow and this is your last Satsang here. At the last stage where Sant Mat has leaded me, neither the idea of His Holiness Data Dayal ji nor the thought of Sadhana occurs to me. Why is this so? It is the fruit of the blessings of Hazur Data Dayal ji that he showered upon me. I enjoy the fruit at this old age. H.H. had blessed me as:-
"Faqira, go beyond the illussive world; World duality, world double dealing, Pleasure, pain amity, enmity;
Venom, Nectar spread all around."
I have explained to you the spectrum of this illusive world. The game of mind, intellect, conscience and ego is known as the illusive world. It is due to the benevolence of His Holiness Data Dayal ji that I could understand the Reality of this illusive world, but you too helped me. Now I do my best not to live in this illusive world. However, this is not in my control. This is the result of my past Karmas.
"Easily I show, the world's form, with discriminative thought,
I teach you this & own you as the One' and this dispels duality VIKARA."
What is duality? It is being Dual. Remembrance of the Guru is duality, warship of Rama is duality and the business of this whole world is duality. My duality is gone. How? Only with this understanding that I do not appear to anybody. His Holiness Data Dayal ji gave me this task not to get worshipped, but to make me understand the Reality of the illusiveness of this world. The company & the experiences of the Satsangis have unveiled the REALITY:-
Guru advises Sadhu,
Sadhu prays for Guru's worship,
Constant nearness with the SUPREME,
Solved the unsolved riddle,
This Duality has many forms,
It is duality of thought,
And Duality is in the Duality Current,
Strife exists in dualism,
Brother takes refuge of non-duality,
True knowledge dawned in Guru's company, Saw world's strange forms,
And got tired of seeing myriad forms, Truth remained seeing ever."
I sat at the feet of my Guru. His Holiness had blessed me that I shall have the glimpse of Sat Guru, in the form of Satsangis. So, you are my real Sat Guru. It is due to you that I could understand that this whole world is a duality. But this state is very sublime. It is not within an easy reach of the worldly people and moreover, this state is not for them. I am lucky, I attained this state. I have nothing to give to you, otherwise, I would have distributed all to you for the favor you have done to me. You are my True Satguru.
"Thou developed love with Guru,
And done Guru Discipline dealing, Guru Disciple then united,
When Supreme grace descended."
The thoughts, feeling, images and shades that are formed within me, is my world. When I was not aware of this Reality it used to tempt. But now since I have known its Reality it does not allure me. Kuber Nath, it is a Secret which none of the saints have explained in such plain words. If at all somebody has said, he said in symbols not understandable. It is done perhaps for establishing and maintaining religious centers and for enjoying the confidence and respect of the ignorant followers. Adoration of the Guru is also a worldly affair, but you cannot live without it. It is most essential, and it cannot be avoided.
"To be one is the Truth,
And this dispels duality from mind. This is all the Truth, nothing else,
Adopt it in mind."
Therefore, time and again I stress upon you to have faith in ONE. Accept Him in any form and surrender yourself to Him alone. He who changes his faith from place to place, gains nothing. A rolling stone gathers no moss. I never plead and advise that you should have faith in me and worship me. Guru is an IDEAL. He is a sheet-anchor of life. Depend upon Him. Your life shall be happy, healthy and peaceful. In 1905 A.D. when I went to His Holiness Data Dayal ji he was not known as a saint in the public. He was known as Babu Ji, and he had no followers. I was his second follower at that time. ‘ZAMI-ZUMBAD NA JUMBAD GULMOHAMMAD’ I surrendered my entire to him with unshakable stead fastness and today I am happy:-
"Truth's adoption is True rule,
Dispelling untruth is Yama (abstinence). When understood this, Discretion awakened, Sat in peaceful state."
What is this adoption of Truth? I will tell you what I myself have understood. Whatever buds forth within me is not the TRUTH. The Truth is that object which witnesses the whole game within. That object is my own self. All the inner creations including the Light, thought and "Sound" perish. Only the SELF is imperishable. SELF is omnipotent but it cannot be understood so easily:-
"Sit cross legged, concentrated mind, Pranayama is the true essence.
In this state, RECHAK, PURAK, KUMBAK, Play the game.
By attaining concentration repeat again and again.
Contemplate with single mindedness,
And Adopt Truth with conscience."
Truth is your own SELF. There is a constant flow of thoughts and feelings, emission of physical, mental and spiritual radiations. They are waves from within our Conscience. With the complete suspension of their flow the state of union with Lord is achieved. What remains within after the attainment of union is inexplicable. Different people have named it differently as Lord, Truth, UNBOUND and UNNAMED. This is the Secret of practical life: It is not theory.
"Adopt this method, with intensive meditation,
0, Faqira, when meditation profound trance
Extends, Ego vanished, selflessness awakened,
Shines the star of knowledge, Thoughtlessness is trance, not thoughtfulness; Knowing killed the mind".
I undertook the practice of meditation and reached the highest state within and thus understood the Reality. But however, this is such a state where none can stay on permanently so long one is in body. Not only I but none else also can stay there.
What is ego? What is selflessness? What remains after the end of the working of extrovert propensities is selflessness and the reverse of it is Ego. This egoism (attachment) is of three kinds gross, subtle and causal. To have claim over the worldly things is gross attachment. The mental assumption that he is my Guru Ideal and Swami, is subtle attachment and enjoys the bliss of SELF within is subtle attachment. How this attachment is to be removed? I have explained it in the previous chapter with the help of Hazur Data Dayal's hymn:-
"Attachment goes not from my mind." "This is Guru's Ashtaang Yoga Truth's spontaneous form.
SURAT SHABAD YOGA'S SADHAN. Vanished doubt & darkness"
How dark doubts vanish? It is due to this attainment of knowledge that He is a Supreme ELEMENT and we are the atoms. We presume ourselves as separate entities and remain engrossed in this world. But when an individual realizes his SELF, he lives in this world and performs all the worldly duties, but does not attach his "SELF" with anything. At this old age, I consider of MYSELF as a bubble of consciousness. With pulsation in this consciousness different centers are formed, as centre of SURAT, Center of SHABAD, Center of LIGHT, Center of MIND, Center of INTELLECT, Centre of conscience, Centre of EGO and centre of BODY. Under His will the process of formation and deformation of these centers continue. When ebb and flow occurs, bubbles and tides are formed. They exist for sometimes and again mingle in the sea.
"Trance Ended consciousness regained? Again Mundana affairs appear? With Sadhan understood Santmat.
And primordial trance attained with ease."
As the trance breaks, I again see the turmoil of the word around. However, it does not disturb me because I know that it is all HIS WILL. I do not make claims that I am BRAHAMA, SAT, UNSEEN, PROFOUND, etc. Now I will give you its proof. Long age in Lahore, I used to pester Hazur Data Dayal ji. One day after feeling greatly disturbed, His Holiness asked me to accompany him to Agra so that he might offer me to the "Memorial" CIST of Huzur Maharaj ji, I agreed. We reached the railway station and purchased tickets for Agra. Again His Holiness said," I shall be free from you after offering you at the Feet of Hazur Maharaj ji." "Will you not bring me back; I humbly enquired His Holiness said, "No". Then I said. "I shall not go to Agra and would not leave you." We went to the hermitage after returning the tickets. In the hermitage His Holiness Data Dayal ji said to me, 'Faqir, I went to the Durbar of Hazur Maharaj only thrice in life and understood the TRUTH. I do not know why you cannot understand?" I again humbly enquired, 'What Hazur Maharaj ji made you understand?" His Holiness Data Dayal ji replied. "I had questioned Hazur Maharaj ji how this word is created!" His Holiness asked me to see him attentively I obeyed. His Holiness opened his mouth and closed and said, "This is the creation."
At the time of narration of this incident by Data Dayal ji I could not understand it. But today I understood it.
“Lips opened and closed.
`It is the Secret of life.”
Now I understand that all the Lower Centers are not REALITY. It is phantasmagoria. 
How my delusion perished? Firstly, this realization that I do not manifest anywhere, removed the darkness of my mind. Secondly, when I ascend to the state of LIGHT and SOUND there I try to search out the object which sees the LIGHT and listens to the SOUND. But I fail to find its end. It is INFINITE. What did I understand? Have I attained some extraordinary powers by reaching that state? No. I cannot treat my own ailments. Neither I nor any other saint could and can do anything. I reached this conclusion that this is all HIS WILL. Kuber Nath. I am telling you the experiences of my life.
"Spontaneous trance Spontaneous Chittavritti.
Spontaneous adoption of yoga in mind, Spontaneous in spontaneity mind waves spontaneously,
And Jeevan Mukta Attained."
This is the highest and the last stage. Now I live a carefree life without any thought of world, YOGA, SADHANA and KNOWLEDGE of Sehasdal Kamal, illuminating light. Trikuti, sound Omkara.
Sunna, Mahasunna, Hansaplays. Bhanvar Sohang Fountain. Transcended up dwelt in Sat Pad.
Forms colors melted.
Loveliness of Alakha-Agama, Radhaswami Abode reached.
What is the Radhaswami Abode? It is not the word spoken but it is a state where individual loses his identity. This is real union with God
"While living life for others
Neither pleasant nor caustic
Neither sharp nor pungent neither soft nor hard.
So far you are alive, perform your all worldly duties but do not develop attachment with anything, it will give you peace of mind. You will not feel pleased with pleasures and anguished with sorrows.
It is liberation in body,
It is principle profound,
It is all taught to thee; Dispelled all Vikara,
Easily thy work is done; slowly liberated,
Easily viewed spontaneous form; Time deed, fear vanished,
Radhaswami the compassionate; Incarnate in saint's forms,
Says Saligram, easily liberated With Guru's kind grace,
Till exist previous deeds;
Enjoy their fruit to end,
Deeds exhaust remains nothing;
Then one dwells the Infinite,
Time Deeds gallows cut;
Lost not the life's game,
Dedicated to Radhaswami; Dwells Faqir in ecstasy",
My going astray in search of Lord Rama, my desire to do good and the duality of sin and virtue has vanished from my mind. Previous deeds are nothing but the thoughts that we cherished in the past. These cherished thoughts take the form of deeds from time to time. None is free from the reaction of his and her previous thoughts. When these thoughts and their reactions exhaust, atom individuals mingle with the Entire (all Pervading). The bubble of water formed by water merges in water. Doubts vanished and I achieved peace.
Kuber Nath, you have come. Credits and debts of previous life are to be received and paid off. Mam Chand (late Shri Mam Chand Sharma) served me for thirty five years. Now Gopal Dass and Narayan Dass look after me. What is this? This is all clearing off the debts and credits of the past.
I have said that individual loses his entity. At this stage of UNION of the ATOM with the ENTIRE there remains nothing but SILENCE. Sant Kabir reached this stage, and he wrote about it. Swami Ji Maharaj has also explained that very stage as:-
"Neither Creator, creature nor creation
Neither doer nor deed there, nor purpose nor difficulty
Neither view nor viewer there & visible nothing; neither marked destination nor mark nor matter;
Neither self nor its modes nor beginning nor end; neither latent nor manifested, visible nor invisible,
Neither Rama, Rahima nor Karima, Keshav there,
nothing, nothing, nothing there;
Neither Smriti Shastra there nor Bhagvat Gita, Neither recitation of Kurana nor reciter there;
Neither worship nor worshipper nor discipline nor swami,
Neither Satnami nor Unnamed there."
Now you yourself ponder over these writings of Swami Ji Maharaj who writes, neither “Neither Satnam nor Anami (Unnamed) how these saints gave this verdict? That he is unnamed. It is after having the experience of merging their own entity with the ENTIRE. These are the inferences of the saints. What is the reality? None has been able to know it. After merger with the... ENTIRE, there remains nothing to seek, to indicate, and to see and to speak. A bubble loses its identity by mingling with the UNFATHOMABLE Ocean. This is my experience.
Kuber Nath! Whatever I have experienced and understood in my life I have spoken to you plainly. May thou be cheerful!
Radhaswami to all!


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